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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 5, 2012 4:57:38 GMT -5
Sadiq,
Thank you for always being there for me because without you I’m sure I’d currently be alone. My brothers would probably have been sick of me moping around and went to get on with his life so once again thank you. At times it seems like you’re not the only one who can put their foot in their mouth. Sorry but when it comes to thinking about if it was right to just leave him I can’t help but wonder if I should have waited.
At this moment I’ve still haven’t been sleeping through the night. Each time I fall asleep I see myself attacking other nations and laughing at their pain. My mind keeps sending me back to my empire days and making me watch myself take young nations and fight others for land. I wish you could get a goodnight sleep instead of suffering through the night.
Spending time with you makes me miss all the time we spent together in the past after the wars.
Sincerely, Arthur Kirkland
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 5, 2012 4:57:53 GMT -5
Dear Kou,
Yes, please at least inform me next time so I don’t begin to worry about you. You might belong to China but when I don’t hear from you I start thinking something happened such as you harming yourself with those dangerous fireworks you play with. No one should want to be like Alfred. There is no reason to pretend you are a hero and cause trouble for other nations. Oh, I thought China still was using his bamboo cane on his misbehaving children.
Thank you for the candy. Sometimes it seems you’re one of my few children who still want to hear from me. You must visit sometime even if China is against it.
Sincerely, Mum
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 5, 2012 5:34:49 GMT -5
Dear Feliciano,
Even when meeting are about something negative Hamish will go, he will go more often than his own boss will go to the meetings. I will explain this as many times as I need, Hamish does not nor has never had a problem with you. I quite surprised you don’t hate him because he is a bully. Honestly I didn’t even think you’d want to speak to me in private. Hamish has this issue with everyone but Joseph. He suddenly will just start acting mean when he’s upset or insecure. In Joseph’s case Hamish has convinced himself that he is a nuance to Joseph and that if he weren’t around Joseph would be happier. Honestly, I think Hamish needs therapy or something because he has convinced himself that everyone is better off without him. As far as I know Joseph is the only person who treats him well and makes him happy so any time he hurts him it’s just a misunderstanding. I’m not sure it will help but it can’t hurt. When he hurts people or believes he did something wrong Hamish actually tends to punish himself. For example: when the frog stopped paying attention to him and flirting with people in front of him Hamish went on an extreme diet and started working out. Even when he picks on you he usually does something to himself for upsetting someone else. When he hurts you he usually won’t smoke when he gets home and make himself go through withdrawals because he wants himself to feel as awful as he made you feel. Well Joseph’s capital’s first sister city was Hamish’s capital so the two have been close for a while. Well I’m glad you are able to talk to someone about everything that happened. It’s always good to be able to speak about things with someone close to you. Last I checked he said he’d be coming down put he might be more fragile than he once was. Alright really doesn’t describe Hamish right now. He’s almost a skeleton and managed to get paler.
Sincerely, Arthur Kirkland
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 5, 2012 7:27:57 GMT -5
Dear Alfred,
Yes, and I'd prefer if you'd ask if you may call me one of those nicknames instead of just molesting my name. I am your former caretaker not one of your little friends who let you call them idiotic pet names. Keep my pants on? You know how much I hate your little sayings. I don't care I would rather you call me by my proper name be in accident or not that caused you to use something else. Alfred can you stop with your hero game? It gets old having you always thinking you can save someone when in the end you just sit around playing videogames and eating junk!
Tone what down? I have plenty of friends thank you. Feliciano, Joseph, Sadiq, my other colonies, Kiku, and Gilbert. If I needed to change my ways I wouldn't have friends now would I?
Sincerely, England
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 5, 2012 7:46:29 GMT -5
Dear Joseph,
I take back what I said about Hamish making up with me. While he isn't eating right or taking care of himself at all he's still being a bully to like always. Just the other day he punched me and then made me take care of the hand he hit me with claiming that it was fault for having such a hard head. Honestly he can be such a child at times it doesn't seem he will ever forgive me for the past. Oh there is a reason? What could be the reason you won't forgive your little brother for all the pain he caused you? I mean he doesn't even have a nation to call his own now. Now that you and Hamish made up I hope you aren't still thinking from running away from the rest of the world. You probably know Hamish better than anyone but still even as a child he feels insecure a lot and due to that he's always worried that you're better off without him. There is no one in the entire world that Hamish cares more about than you. Even since he met you his life is about pleasing you it seems. Joseph I could never be upset with you for not wanting to be with Dylan. You and Hamish are connected by your hearts and I would rather you both be made up and together than you giving Dylan a chance. Do you see now that you did nothing wrong? Please let Hamish get better and make sure he gains weight before he starts trying to build his muscle back.
This isn't goodbye, Arthur Kirkland
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 5, 2012 7:50:02 GMT -5
Dear Kiku,
I hope you realize by saying that I'm going to go through every room in the house to see what has happened between you and the other you. Why do you care if your house is clean or not? When we met you saw my house a complete mess before so there is no reason for you to be so worried about it.
Well I will protect them from Kuro so they have nothing to fear.
Sincerely, Arthur
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Post by Sadiq Adnan on Jul 6, 2012 1:03:42 GMT -5
Arthur,
I will always be there for you, I promised you that years ago and as far as I'm concerend that holds true, especially now. I do love you Arthur. Don't worry, its all worked out and it seems like your picking up habits off of me. You're still thinking about him....I see. Well, you know how I feel on the matter. he had ignored you for two months, if not more...that behavior doesn't change overnight, your better off withouth him making you feel guilty just because you wanted your signifiant other to pay attention to you.
I wish I could help you get rid of your nightmares, you need more sleep than you've been getting. I'm happy just being able to try and comfort you after a nightmare, or to sooth you out of one...if you can think of anything that could help you, please let me know. I would do anything for you Arthur.
You don't have to miss those time, we're together now. All new memories to be made and to enjoy, There's not really much to miss anymore.
Sadiq
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 6, 2012 2:24:47 GMT -5
Dear Sadiq,
Don't worry I know you will always be there for me because you're a true friend and the only man I need in my entire life. Unlike everyone else you've already treated me well and loved me enough to give me the attention I need. What habits did I pick up form you? Yes, I'm still thinking of him not I'm not thinking about how much I loved him or anything like that. For some reason I keep wondering if he was ever going to leave me. I just want to know if he was going to always lead me on or if he was going to leave me so I could move on. Don't worry I know what you think of him for doing that to me.
Right now I would do anything to make them go away. I have no idea why my old self is trying to make me remember but he seems like he wants to show me something. He could just tell me but it seems like he wants me to see it for some odd reason. The other night I was dreaming of sitting in Ottoman's lap and looking drugged. My body was pretty much limp and people were speaking to Ottoman while he pet me as if I were his pet. It was an odd dream because I don't remember ever doing drugs when I was with Ottoman. Please keep saving me from the nightmares.
I know because now it better than it was back then.
Sincerely, Arthur
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Post by Sadiq Adnan on Jul 6, 2012 14:02:45 GMT -5
Arthur,
I have always tried my best by you. I know I have failed sometimes, but I'm glad you see that I try. You said your sticking your foot in your mouth...thats one of my habits, so it seems like your picking it up from me. Thats good to hear. I don't know any of the answers to that kalbimi; for that you would have to ask him. Is it worth thinking of those things though? Learn from the past and leave it there.
Have you tried talking to him in your dreams, ask him for clarification? Looking drugged........there are ...many ways to drug a person without them knowing. Certain berries, different foods mixed in, adding the drug to the hookah. I would say, it could have been a possibility. I will always be there to bring you out of the nightmares, there is no reason to worry about that.
That is good to hear kalbimi.
Sadiq
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 8, 2012 0:56:20 GMT -5
Dear Sadiq,
As long as you have always tried you best I can only keep believing you're the best for me and no one can love me more than you do. We all fail at times and that is nothing to beat yourself up over because I will forgive you for your failures as long as you forgive me for mine. Everyone sticks their foot in their mouth from time to time you just do it more often than everyone else. Speak to Portugal? No I don't want to talk to him anymore. Sadiq you know well I don't like to leave things in the past.
I've tried and he never answers me it seems. I don't understand what is happening my dreams because all of the things from the past I see I don't remember happening. Back when I was an empire I was careful to not eat anything that could be drugged so it doesn't make sense to me at all. All I want to do is forget this past if it did happen.
Sincerely, Arthur
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Post by Sadiq Adnan on Jul 8, 2012 1:28:25 GMT -5
Arthur,
I am glad to hear that you think that. I will always forgive you, you have forgiven me for so much, much more thatn you should have. ...Yea, I do it more than a lot of people, hopefully you can learn to ignore the moments when I do stick my foot in my mouth. Then I don't know how to help then.
Try writitng everything down, hopefully you'll be able to figure it out. Some......Some things are best left not remembered, best left forgotten....Just, just forget it, it doesn't matter anymore, it has no bearing on the preset nor how much I love you.
Sadiq
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jul 13, 2012 19:24:14 GMT -5
Dear Alfred, Yes, and I'd prefer if you'd ask if you may call me one of those nicknames instead of just molesting my name. I am your former caretaker not one of your little friends who let you call them idiotic pet names. Keep my pants on? You know how much I hate your little sayings. I don't care I would rather you call me by my proper name be in accident or not that caused you to use something else. Alfred can you stop with your hero game? It gets old having you always thinking you can save someone when in the end you just sit around playing videogames and eating junk! Tone what down? I have plenty of friends thank you. Feliciano, Joseph, Sadiq, my other colonies, Kiku, and Gilbert. If I needed to change my ways I wouldn't have friends now would I? Sincerely, England Arthur, I've got it. I said that alright and I mean it. Former caretaker? What a way to put it. You were a father to me, sounds like maybe you don't see it that way 'though. Geeze like you don't have your own slang over there, maybe you'd like better if I used yours. What are you blinkered*, eh whatever. How can I stop being what I am? I am the hero and it's no game. Maybe you don't know me as well as you think you do old man. How much have you even seen me lately? Not a whole bloody lot. So don't go assuming about things you know nothing about. I do all my work and I take it very seriously and I'm always watching out for my children. What I do with the free time afforded to me is to blow off steam and help to calm down and games are a good way to blow off steam without hurting anyone. And even then I spend more time with my fiancee than on any game and I actually eat pretty well at home. Junk's just good road food. Whatever. I'm not sure I can explain and I didn't mean that you didn't have any friends. Alfred *Blinkered - Someone who is blinkered is narrow minded or narrow sighted - they only see one view on a subject. It comes from when horses that pulled carriages wore blinkers to stop them seeing to the side or behind them which stopped them from being startled and only let them see where they were going.
I'd like to make something clear here just in case... Alfred isn't stressing finance to try and hurt Arthur he's just stressing that that's what she is and how important she is to him. I think he wants England to understand that he's growing up now and that he's not a child.
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Post by Honda Kiku on Jul 13, 2012 21:08:30 GMT -5
Dear Kiku, I hope you realize by saying that I'm going to go through every room in the house to see what has happened between you and the other you. Why do you care if your house is clean or not? When we met you saw my house a complete mess before so there is no reason for you to be so worried about it. Well I will protect them from Kuro so they have nothing to fear. Sincerely, Arthur Asa-san, I would ask you to refrain from doing so. As the host to a guest, I hope you would consider very carfeully my request. A clean house is important for appearance sake. The house and the mind may have special links after all. A messy house says alot about some people, as does a clean one. I am sure you kn0ow how impornat image is, yes? Your house was not a mess at all! It was clean and very beautiful. For that, I have every reason to be worried. Thank you, but it seems that the threat is gone for now. We seem to have come to... and understanding. The pets have been doing well so far. Japan Honda Kiku
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Post by josephseidl on Jul 18, 2012 14:22:20 GMT -5
Servus Arthur,
that is bad… Mei, I hope that I can get him to eat properly again soon, but admittedly I don’t really know what to do about it. I don’t want to force-feed him and upset him again right now that we finally made up. Not that I’m happy that he bothers you again, but it sounds like he’s back to normal a bit… T-That’s… no, I can’t tell you that. You wouldn’t understand it anyway. … No, I’m not running away… and I hope Hamish isn’t either. How could he think that?! I begged him not to leave me. He must have seen what a hell life without him is for me! I-I can’t live without him. Jessas Maria, the mere thought that Hamish wanted to throw me away made me want to leave this world and since I knew that I couldn’t kill myself join a monastery. … pleasing me? Well, as I said, it’s nothing personal. Dylan is a good guy and a nice friend… It’s just that I’ve never seen more than a friend in him and I never had the feeling that he did. T-that is true. Ja, Hamish and my hearts are connected. … W-wha-?! S-seriously…? B-but… only some weeks ago… we were… I thought he’d send me packing… and I’d never seen him again… and I’d join a monastery… and live as a celibate… and… W-when now we get together and… d-doesn’t that make me an incredible hypocrite…? And a slut…? … And what if it doesn’t work out? Arthur, it would kill me to lose Hamish a second time! … Scheiße, I am so afraid to lose him again. N-nein, I did made mistakes… Maybe different ones than I thought, but… somehow I made Hamish send me that (fake) potion, so obviously I went wrong somewhere. Believe me, there’s nothing that I would like more than to make Hamish get better, but I don’t know how.
R-right, Joseph
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Post by Arthur Kirkland on Jul 21, 2012 21:33:26 GMT -5
Dear Alfred,
I never wanted to be a father to you! What I wanted was to be your big brother, the person you looked up to and could always trust. All of my former colonies have shown me that I failed at that by either refusing to speak to me or referring to me as their mother. Of course I have my own slang over here but that doesn't mean I want to hear any of the God awful slang you use! Please Alfred enlighten me of once where you saved anyone like the heroes in your comic books. Why the bloody hell would I want to know anything about some ungrateful git who calls me an old man? Yes, you're right I don't know much about you but what can you honestly say you know anything about my life? Go away Alfred! I do not need someone like you rubbing salt in my wounds! Losing my fiancee was painful enough so I do not need you to rub that you still have a fiance that loves you. Sadiq has been helping me forget about my ex fiancee who abandoned me but you just had to look for a way to hurt me don't you? I would never spit in your face like that!
Sincerely, Arthur Kirkland
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