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Post by Gilbert Beilschmidt on Apr 22, 2012 3:27:03 GMT -5
Liebe Astrid,
Really now...Wait, never seen a castle before? Wooooooow, that's really unawesome! Even I know what there are different forms of Gothic architecture. French, English, American... Can't believe that he doesn't know that... You be sure to teach that Dummkopf something, ja?
...Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame~ I didn't let you force me to teach you how to pick a lock to sneak your boyfriend into the dangerous sections of the castles so you can have sex with him there like we all did while the castles were still in use. But the new dye should be working, unless you're not using a darker color. You've gotta dye your hair black, it's the only way it'll cover up the blue, ja? There's no way she was able to mess with the actual composition of the dye. You're just not trying hard enough.
Kesesesese, that I am!
...Na ja, I don't think I'll be doin' too much wine drinkin' but if I do ever get the urge I'll be sure t'swipe some of yours.
Ja ja, I'm not going anywhere and I'm not getting sick or nothing. I'm really good at passin' work off t'the people actually in charge of doing it. Don't tell Ludz that, of course, but about half the work he and I are supposed t'do I've convinced the officials t'actually do, since it's their jobs t'do stuff like that. Only so long as Ludz is out of the office, of course. Once he's home we've gotta take it back. damn lazy bastards, makes me want to teach them a lesson the Fritz way! As if you could tie me down if you wanted to, Fraulein. It's not happenin' though so don't worry.
Herzliche Grüße, Awesome Gilbert
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Post by josephseidl on Apr 22, 2012 8:47:41 GMT -5
Servus Preußen,
hell no!! I told you to stay away! Himmel Herrgott Sakrament! I forbid you to come!! ... ... ... What?! Why the hell is Hamish writing to you behind my back?! Why the hell is he being civil with you?! And... Hamish?! You call him by his first name?! Zefix, even we aren't on first name basis even though we're half-brothers! Damnit!! What is going on here? Are you trying to make fun of me or what?!
Bayern
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Post by Gilbert Beilschmidt on Apr 22, 2012 12:52:55 GMT -5
Liebes Brüderchen,
You should have my confidence, it'd definitely help you out a bit especially with this whole situation with Feli that you know is happening but you're tryin' t'ignore because you're a Dummerchen like that Really? Huh...Na ja, I don't really have a lot of advice or anythin' about that. Have ya asked him about it? Like...why he would work so hard t'fix himself quickly? Maybe if you talk t'him about it and try t'understand his feelings about the situation, you could help him see that rushin's not gonna help, ja? Really, this kinda reminds me of when you started tryin' t'hide your nightmares from me back when you were little ...They actually make Bayern and Sachsen and the rest of us sound reliable. Hard t'believe, ja? Well, I'm glad that they're takin' the work now, there's no way he'd be doin' his job properly the way you had him soundin' before. ...Hm... Well, maybe he toned it down when talkin' to you about him. I dunno, I was just shocked that Romano'd ask so soon after this whole thing even started, it had been less than a year, seemed a bit rushed t'me. That's probably why it's all gone t'shit, Romano probably woke up, realized he'd rushed into things and he doesn't feel like that as much as he did and rather than explain that t'his brother, who would have totally understood, and instead...broke everythin' trying to back up a couple steps. That sounds like something the Arsch would do I wasn't talkin' 'bout doomsday either. But that definitely meant that he was in a really bad place. It was probably a really smart move of ya t'get down there when you did.
If he's makin' progress, then why would he have t'hide his pain from you, Ludz? Obviously you're really helpin' him out, and he doesn't trust anyone as much as he trusts you, so there's no way he'd hide his pain if he knows you're happy with helping him feel better. If ya ask me, he's hidin' something else. Like the growin' more than friendly affection we can all see in both of you It's good that he's helpin' you too, but...why wouldn't you take his word, Bruder? He'd never lie to you, as I've said already he adores you. Take that as you will, but he's worth trusting. He knows what it's like to be lied to, Brüder, so you know he would never lie to you. ...And quit worrying about the Drecksack Japan. He's getting all the help he needs. Ludz, listen t'yourself, ja? "Not many people with a smile as pretty as Feliciano's", "I can't leave before he was well again", "As long as Feliciano is smiling the world is in order" "Feliciano", "Feliciano", "Feliciano". You go on and on about him, Ludz, practically singing your praises when you aren't thinking about what you're saying, but then...Once I start offerin' up the idea that you do like him a bit more than a friend you immediately recoil, and with a bit more force than you would if it hadn't crossed your mind already. You gotta admit it. Your 'like' for Feliciano goes beyond 'first, closest and best friend'. ...Ludz, I swear you're more stubborn than all of our siblings put together sometimes. Just because you don't put yourself down doesn't mean you don't take responsibility for something. You're just...Ugh, I'd say you were bein' a bit dramatic, West. You're not done a thing t'show that you're 'shucking off' the responsibility, but that still don't mean you have to get yourself down for it. It's unnecessary. I swear to Gott that if you really do blame yourself for Amerika finishing the atomic bomb and using it himself I'm going to hit you until I knock the sense back into you ...Well, that could happen sometime in the very, very distant future, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna be as forgiving and let him even a kilometer close to you again could still be a long time from now, so I'll say what I want to say until the situation improves. Then I'll 'watch what I say'. Of course I'm right, Ludz. You don't rank how you heal to how others heal, that's just a stupid idea. See? Even you know how stupid it is, so you'd better not.
...well I don't really give a Scheiße if he wouldn't be happy that we were talkin' about his crazy fashion sense If I'm rememberin' the right tie, didn't Saschen give it to you for Weihnachten a few years back? M'surprised that Feliks chewed you out for it, the coffee addict's usually got good taste, or so he says, anyway. Why d'ya even bother, Brüderchen? The more y'tell Bayern no the more he's gonna ignore ya and do whatever Scheiße he wants, y'know that. But I'm sure he'll be fine, he's got it in his head that he's a 'respectable federal-state' and I doubt he's gonna jeopardize that. Ja ja, not a problem, Ludz. ...You told me t'behave and no causing scenes, and you know how over-dramatic and whiny Feliks gets when you don't do what he says. ...Y'know what? That sounds like an awesome idea! I'll drag Saschen and Brannenborg with me and then make them take Feliks shopping and I'll sneak off when they're all distracted! Kesesesese, danke for the idea, Brüderchen! ...That's pretty much exactly what y'did, Ludz. You gathered your papers, packed a bag, and ran t'him like a lovestruck Prince Charming as soon as you could. And you really think that, if you're there long enough to get used t'living with him, essentially, you'd be able to just walk away from that? You'd be able to just send him back t'Venedig and go back to seeing him once, twice a year outside of work?
Alles Liebe, Gilbert
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Post by Gilbert Beilschmidt on Apr 22, 2012 13:18:10 GMT -5
Lieber Bayern J-Joseph,
If you didn't want me t'come then don't fucking invite me! I'm already at the airport, I'm not leaving now just because you can't handle the awesome!
...? Zum Teufel?! He's been writin' to me about the Scheiße that Francis has been doin'. He wanted me t'help him with a prank, but then we just started talkin'. And I don't know why he's 'bein' civil' t'me, but I really don't see why he wouldn't. I haven't done Scheiße t'him so why would he do Scheiße t'me? ...Ja, he started callin' me Gilbert, so I started callin' him Hamish. Is that a problem...? Jesus, you're actin' like I'm going to steal him, calm the fuck down already And we're not on first-name basis because we don't like each other, remember? even though you've called me by my name a bunch the last few letters, maybe we're startin' t'get there? ...Dammit, this is still weird ... ........ Are you slow, Bayern Joseph? Nothin's goin' on. Ja, I'm down in Munchen, actually about t'get a taxi to your place, because you invited me to, not t'mention I want t'check up on Ludz, he seems to be spazzing about the situation with Feli and I think talkin' to him face t'face would help. And Hamish and I are just writin' letters, I'm not tryin' t'make fun of you. Jesus, you're so paranoid.
Alles Liebe, Awesome... Gilbert Preußen
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Post by ludwig on Apr 23, 2012 7:43:43 GMT -5
Lieber Bruder,
actually I doubt that... Nein... No, I guess I haven't asked him about it directly. But I keep telling him to take things easy and that he doesn't have to force himself to make progress so quickly. Maybe I should talk to Feliciano though. That sounds like a good advice to me. Gilbert, please... Our siblings may lack a lot of things, but not reliability. Yes, I am also relieved that Sizilien and Florenz are getting their share of work done, maybe even Romano. There is no doubt in my mind that Feliciano couldn't have kept up his schedule for much longer, even without Romano breaking his heart. … There wouldn't have been a reason to hold back in a talk with me. But I agree that Romano's proposal was obviously rushed. When I arrived Feliciano's condition hasn't been exactly the best, that is right. I am very glad that he is doing so much better by now, even if he is still far from being perfectly well again admittedly.
I can't answer that question, Gilbert. But Feliciano is hiding something from me, I know him well enough to be able to tell that much. What it is is a mystery to me though. It is a good thing that we can help each other. Th-that is jus- … Entschuldige. I know that is is unreasonable to transfer the insecurity I feel since the incident with Japan on Feliciano... Somehow I still can't help it. But you are right, he wouldn't li- Gilbert, he doesn't “adore” me, don't be silly. … I can't. Nein, Bruder... You are twisting my words... or not... But you are reading too much into them. I like Feliciano as my best friend. That thought has never crossed my mind. And I am not going to admit anything. … W-would it make you happy to hear that... for a split second I have once thought... about it maybe...? However, I came to the conclusion that it couldn't to well. Sometimes I have to be more stubborn than all of you to handle you. I don't put myself down and I am not dramatic, Gilbert. ... It was me who started the war in whose process the bombs that my people started working on, have been dropped on my ally's land. How could I possibly not blame myself for it? The same goes for all the other projects the Nazi scientists have been working on and that they handed over to other countries in their exile during the Cold War... Maybe I am too naïve, but still I hope we can overcome... this incident when some time passes. Ja, I got your point.
Right, it was the red tie I got from Sachsen. Feliks didn't have anything against the tie per se, but he found it “like totally old-fashioned and unwearable”. I know, I know... Joseph is very stubborn unfortunately but you are one to talk.... Has he said that? Calling himself a federal state is quite a progress. Gilbert, I am still convinced that you could have managed to talk Feliks out of this idea somehow. By not causing scenes I was rather thinking about that havoc in the football stadium some moths ago, not about a whining Pole. That was not what I meant, but I guess Poland and Sachsen would enjoy shopping together. That is not true and how zum Kuckuck do you know and you know it. W-well, basically... yes. It has been decided from the start, thus I am not allowed to get used to living with Feliciano in the first place. When he is well again, our paths will part. Yet... for the time being Feliciano will stay with me and accompany me back to Berlin.
Liebe Grüße Ludwig
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Post by josephseidl on Apr 23, 2012 8:41:14 GMT -5
Saupreiss*,
I told you from the start that I only invited you pro forma and that I expected you to decline, verdammt!
… so that's it... I see. He didn't want to talk about his relationship problems with me at all, but chose you of all people. I guess now I know where I stand with him... You've done lots of Scheiße to me and Hamish is my best friend, I would call that reason enough. Well, apparently not for him... Ja, it is a fucking problem for me, you ignorant idiot! There have only been two persons who I have really cared about, namely Austria and Hamish. Take a wild guess what it means for me when, right now that Austria has been erased from my memories, Hamish befriends my nemesis. … Fine! Thanks for reminding me. Yes, I fucking hate your guts!
For all I care you can turn around and go back to Berlin. How about taking Ludwig and Feliciano with you? And I can send Hamish after you too when he arrives, in the end everybody leaves me anyway… Go and talk to your stupid little brother then, he seems to need it. Now I am about to leave and will drop by their mansion on my way, before I'll head to my office. Do whatever you want. I won't be back before evening... if I come back at all.
Pfiadi, Bayern
((* Bad relapse... ^^; ))
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Post by Sadiq Adnan on Apr 26, 2012 13:32:51 GMT -5
Gil,
Have you ever just felt like doing what you wanted to do and screw what everyone else thought? That's pretty much what I meant. I've kind of gotten over that feeling since we last talked, but its still there. Well, at the time could we do anything else but be harsh? We knew it was harsh, but often times there was no alternative method to be seen. Evet, but everyone always hopes to be the underdog to take out the pack leader. History is filled with such events and they hopped to join the ranks.
I've seen him in multiple different scenarios, but its been a long time since I've seen him angry. I must agree, it is obvious...to us at least. Often times the two in the situation are only seeing what they expect to see. I'm sure they will come to the realization eventually.
Evet, your right as always, I was just depressing myself, I do have quite a few people, even one that's willing to lay a curse for me if I should ask. Beat over the head......dude, I just burst out lauging beat over the head with a shoe..... I'm feeling better now Gil. Talking to Feliciano, Ludwig and yourself has helped.
Yes, I think I'll come up for a quick drink before I head over to Arthurs', it would be good to see a friendly face again.
Sadiq
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Ya' know that saying " There are lovers, and there are fighters." Definately a lover.
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Post by Christopher Jones on Apr 27, 2012 15:26:09 GMT -5
Dear Prussia,
Trust me, I don't plan on talking shit bout anyone any time soon. Especially if ur the one tellin' me not to.
I've been able to be more social with the other states lately. For a while I've been fighting something off, but I'm not gonna sweat it nd get back to talkin' to everybody. Work can wait now, I got enough done. Hows everything going with you though? Makin' any good progress?
All my loving, Chris
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Post by Gilbert Beilschmidt on May 4, 2012 7:37:05 GMT -5
Liebes Bruderchen,
What, you doubt that mein totally awesome self doesn't know what t'tell you about this situation? ...Yeah, that's pretty unlikely, but true, verdammt! Oh c'mon, Ludz, Süßer may be obedient and Scheiße usually doesn't mean he listens t'everything. Even if you tell him not to, pretty sure once it's in his head he's as bullheaded as any of our siblings. Talking about it flat-out sounds like the best bet t'me. I dunno West, they haven't been the most reliable through the past, even if they are better than certain Italians and all that. But ja, it's definitely a good thing, though I'm still seriously not happy about them not doing it sooner. Isn't family supposed to mean like, everything to Italians and all that? Feli always acted like it was, but the way his family is makes me wonder if Süßer was just trying to delude himself into thinking that or something. ...I doubt that the Arsch would do Feli's work, West. Y'know that he's always had problems with his own work, I can't seriously think he'd take on his own work as well as what Feli usually does. ...It's sad t'say, but I don't think he would've lasted either. He'd called up a few times about work and he sounded pretty verdammt awful. ...Well I don't know why he would, Ludz. He just might've thought that you wouldn't want to hear him talk like that, or maybe...He was just as confused about how he felt as Lovi and didn't realize it. It's just sucks for Süßer that it all ended like that at once. That's what matters, I suppose. That he's doin' better, now how Scheiß he was back then.
Sorry, rhetoric question and all that. I'm pretty sure everyone knows what he's hiding from you, though, Ludz. You're just too oblivious t'see it. Why don't you ask him about this too, West? If you want t'know, just ask, tell him whatever it is you can help or something. There's no way he'd lie to your face even if he doesn't want you to know what's eating at him. Nein, don't worry about that, Ludz, it's understandable. You've still got plenty of Scheiße to get over even know, after all. I just want you t'remember that you can trust Feliciano. ...Yeah, I'm pretty sure he does. The only times he isn't normally latched onto you somehow is when he's been dragged off by someone else or you're in a 'fight' or the closest thing to a fight the two of you really have... ...well try to worry less. I ain't fuckin' kiddin' when I say that he's getting all the help he can get. He'll be fine, worry about you and your Italian enigma. So I'm readin' into it too much, am I? ...Yeah, that's what I thought. Ja, it makes me happy t'hear you're finally realiz-- ...Wie zum Teufel could you think that it wouldn't end well, Ludz? Obviously you didn't think about it hard enough. ...I can understand that logic. Especially with us. Kesesesese, any less stubborn and we'd walk all over you. Only problem is that you don't know when t'turn the stubbornness off. ...Ja, you do, Ludz. You might not do it in a sense that you're insultin' yourself, but you guilt yourself in was you really don't have to. And you can be pretty dramatic, Ludz. Methinks you've had Feli rubbin' off on you a bit much. None of those were your fault how people used them, Ludz. Don't act like they were. Argh, you make me want to shake you sometimes, Bruderlein, you really do. ...Nein, not naïve, Ludz. Hopeful and a little optimistic, maybe. But as much as I don't like it now t'pain won't last forever, ja. You'll be able t'talk again, eventually.
...That means he's got something against the tie itself, Ludz. Now if he was like, "That tie totally doesn't go with your complexion! Makes you look to pale!" or somethin' like that, then he just wouldn't like how you looked in the tie. But sayin' it's "like, totally unwearable!" then he hates the tie. Ja, the Weißwurstlutscher Joseph is a stubborn Arsch... He's been bitchin' me out about 'respecting' him just because he's the 'number one federal state', and apparently he's been sayin' that for ages. Just not when you're around, Bruder ...We're not talkin' about it anymore. W-Wie zum Teufel was I supposed t'know that?! I get yelled at all the time for 'causing scenes', how am I supposed t'know what you meant? Ugh, he wouldn't leave me alone for weeks after that... Hence why I'm gonna make sure those two start bein' shopping partners. then I can screw around with Sachsen's coffee and he won't immediately know it was me ...Ludz, you had just been finishin' up a paper when I left for an early meetin', but when I got home t'bring you to work your travel bag was gone and there was a note on the table. M'pretty sure that was you reactin' rather than thinkin'. And totally running off like the princes in those old fairy tales I used t'tell you. ...Ludz, you two have been livin' together for over a month now, and who knows how much longer before he's deemed 'well enough' t'live alone? You're gonna get used t'waking up and having him laying next to you, still sleeping if we have anythin' t'say about it around all the time, even if you don't plan on it. He'll get used t'having you around too, and even if he's well do you really think Feli would like staying home alone?
Alles Liebe, Gilbert
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Post by Gilbert Beilschmidt on May 4, 2012 8:05:18 GMT -5
Lieber Joseph,
Then you were thinking wrong, verdammt! We're supposed t'start getting along, so I thought the invite was genuine despite all the Scheiße you were sayin' about makin' the trip miserable.
....Ugh, you are a right pain in the fuckin' Arsch, y'know that? Do you think I know why he'd talk t'me first? Because I fuckin' don't, so quit draggin' me into this when I have no fuckin' idea what's going on! So what if he asked me to pull a fuckin' prank on Francis, Joseph. Everyone comes t'me if they need some righteous retribution on someone and they can't do it themselves. That doesn't mean fuckin' shit! The only reason he even mentioned anything else was t'explain why he wanted my help, and then we started talkin' about everyone else's relationship Scheiße and his issues with Francis came up. He didn't ask for help or anything so stop actin' like I'm stealin' your friend when I'm fucking not!! Oh Gott im fucking Himmel!! You are such a fucking child!
And if you're gonna act like a fuckin' brat then so am I! You're stuck with me now, Joseph, and I'm not fuckin' leaving until I want to! Ja, I'll talk t'Ludz, but I better be hearin' you talkin' to Feliciano then. You stole him from me, so you better take fuckin' care of him.
Alles Liebe, Gilbert
((It's fine. Gilbert's just gonna sink to Joseph's level then and act like the stubborn brat we all know he is. <<))
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Post by Gilbert Beilschmidt on May 5, 2012 1:35:18 GMT -5
Lieber Diq,
...Diq, story of my fuckin' life! Kesesesese~ This slice of awesome always does what he wants! But ja, I get what you're sayin' now. But nein, it's not a bad thing to feel like that so long as you don't be a giant Arsch about it at the same time. Ja ja, harsh was necessary. And the way Scheiße keeps goin' down it should come back. Might get everyone back in line and all this economy Scheiße over and done with. Bah, no one can top this piece of mother-fucking awesome! Kesesesesese~ Not at war anyway, I own all your asses!
You don't want to, either. Count yourself lucky. I'm sure if Ludz had seen over half the Scheiße you were sayin' happened t'Süßer they would've definitely gotten pissed. Even if then they were only 'friends'. They'd better verdammt come to it then, I've been tryin' to talk sense into Luddi about this for ages, not working so well but verdammt I will get him to figure this out.
...H-Hey now, ja, I'm ze awesome Preußen and I'm right but you don't need t'get all.... I don't know, putting yourself down or whatev-- I would do it! Don't laugh! I wear steel toed boots, it would hurt t'get hit over the head with a shoe. But ja, m'glad you're feelin' better even if it's from laughing at mein very serious threats
M'kay, I'm heading down to Joseph's place in a few days so it'll have t'be a short trip, ja? I'll take out out to the best places in town, and don't worry about payin'. I've got ya covered. You just focus on makin' yourself feel better, ja?
Herzliche Grüße, Gilbert
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Post by Gilbert Beilschmidt on May 5, 2012 2:22:25 GMT -5
Lieber Michigan,
Gut. Because Scheiße's been goin' down over here and I don't want t'hear that. ...Unless you're makin' fun of people I don't like. Then you can have at it! Kesese~
Ja ja, work can always wait! There's always plenty of it, why freak out over it instead of takin' some time t'yourself? Kesesesese, then again I get into plenty of trouble for takin' 'too much' time, so you gotta be careful~ Don't want to get into trouble~
Herzliche Grüße, Awesome Preußen
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Post by Sadiq Adnan on May 5, 2012 13:16:48 GMT -5
Gil,
Yea, I can see that, and I don't blame you, it seems like a good way to live. Don't worry, I won't be an ass about it. Hmm, your right, it might be needed with the way things are going...to many stupid mistakes not learned from. Are you sure no one can top you, I seem to remember...oh, war. Yes, that, the smartest of nations were afraid to fight you. except that one time with France, but I wont bring that up as I don't like fucker
You mean the stuff at Hamish's house? Or in the past? Cause he was there for some of what happened to Feliciano at the party? He knows about all of that, and actually helped put his should back in place, and helped to take care of his burned hands and bruises. They better, I can see it working out very well for them when they figure it out, but they will figure it out when they do, and one of them better have the guts to make the first move, otherwise they should both be locked in a closet for twenty four hours.
I'm not quite putting myself down anymore, your helping alot. And I believe you and I believe it would hurt like hell, but just imagine it would ya, the almighty Prussia on the attack with a shoe..you can't tell me that's not a funny image.
That's fine, it would only have to be a short trip. I'll stop by on my way of to visit Arthur. I will, don't worry Gil. alright, you can cover this one, but next time out its on me. You have the next few days free? If so, I'll head up as soon as I get your letter.
Sadiq
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Post by Astrid Moreau on May 5, 2012 14:15:37 GMT -5
Lieber Gilbert
I know, he's going to get quite the education on castles, I'm going to teach him everything I know about them. He won't be able to say he doesn't know about castles after this trip is done.
Lame? How is that lame? You were perfectly happy to teach....Was zum Teufel? First off, he's not my boyfriend, and second, you have no room to tell me that I can't have sex in a castle if I feel like it! I've heard stories of you and Antonio and France, you have no room to talk! If even half the stuff I hear is true, you've all done a lot worse than breaking into a castle and getting each other off! If I wanted to have sex in the castle with him I would! I'm not going to as I don't know him well enough, but still, if Iwanted to I would]/s]
*cough* Anyway, I didn't want to dye may hair black, but I guess I'm going to have to. *sigh* I'll do it once he leaves...he actually thinks blue hair might look good.
Swipe some....well, take it out of my personal store then instead of what's up for sale.
Good. I won't tell him, don't worry. Aren't the officially supposed to be during their own work anyway and not have you deal with it? That's what they're their for anyway. I'm a little rusty, but I'd at least make a go of it, I'd still be able to impress you I'm sure.
Astrid
((letters is not as good as the one the site ate.....sorry about that))
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Post by ludwig on May 7, 2012 9:16:46 GMT -5
Lieber Bruder,
what situation are you talking about...? There are a lot of things Feliciano doesn't listen to, for example when I tell him to run another lap, or finish his work before playing with Cannoli, or not to hug me,... although admittedly he listens to the latter lately. I asked him, but to be honest I don't think that I understand him much better now. For obvious reasons I can't speak for the past, but nowadays our siblings are quite responsible. Everybody gets their share of work done more or less on time. Of course Feliciano's siblings should have helped him out sooner, that is beyond dispute. Right... but this family seems to be more dysfunctional than I thought. To a certain degree it might have been Feliciano's wishful thinking. Na ja... Considering how he grew up the longing for a caring family is understandable, isn't it? … Feliciano had called you before? Why didn't you tell me? I knew that he was working too hard, but he apparently didn't wa-... Of course... It was only some weeks after I returned from Japan, right? He didn't want to bother me... Verdammt. M-maybe... I have to admit that it would probably have been... odd... to listen to stories about how happy Feliciano was with Romano I didn't ask about it. But why would Feliciano have been confused about his feelings when he had been in love with him for centuries?
I understand. … Ask him...? There is no way that he would answer that question when he is trying so badly to hide whatever it is from me. Bruder, that doesn't make sense. How can he not lie and still not tell me? … It has been months and still I can't stop thinking that way, even if... by now I don't have to think about him that much anymore but about Feliciano... I am not sure if that is any better. Oh Gott.... I-I know and I do trust him, I am trying not to let those unreasonable fears get in the way. … That isn't true, Gilbert. J-ja, I am trying... But I wonder if I should maybe write to him on occasion? I mean... I think that I could... and... I would like to make sure that he knows that I don't blame him and... that I want him to be well... But I don't know if he ever wants to hear from me again. … My Italian enigma...? … J-ja. … Gilbert... Bruder, you want me to think about it but aren't satisfied with my opinion anyway... It is obvious though, isn't it...? Feliciano and I are the best of friends. He has been in love with Romano for centuries, and I... fell in love with Japan even when I am pretty much over it now. H-how can he... or I... be sure that if we should... then those feelings are genuine... falling for someone else after such a short time...? … I don't want Feliciano to get hurt a second time and I certainly don't want to be the one doing it to him... That is exactly right, but nothing you should be proud of, Gilbert. I do know when to turn the stubbornness off, but I don't see why you think I'm being stubborn right now to begin with. … I have to disagree, since it goes without saying that I take the responsibility for the guilt I have incurred. That has nothing to do with insulting myself or being dramatic... or Feliciano's influence on me.
You think so? Admittedly I don't know much about fashion and with the trends changing so fast I have troubles keeping up. One day everybody has to wear a choker and a bow-tie, then a shirt-collar and a neck-tie, then no ties at all... And with every century it's getting more complicated. I am glad that I have a friend that I can ask, while I rather concentrate on my work than fashion. All right, I got it. I won't wear the tie around Feliks anymore. … Gilbert, please watch your vocabulary. Yes, Joseph is saying that since decades, you Eastern states just haven't learnt to ignore it yet. On another note, what is the matter between you and Joseph? I thought you were trying to get along now, but apparently you have been fighting again. You aren't serious, are you? How can you not tell the difference…? I wouldn't yell at you all the time for causing scenes if you would simply stop causing scenes. That is fine by me and if Saxony and Poland agree as well, I don't see any problems. … You are exaggerating. I haven't left that hastily. There was still enough time to book a flight, pack a suitcase, feed the dogs, water the plants, do the dishes... and call a taxi. Admittedly I only watered the plants and finished the dishes because that gottverdammte taxi was late. … It has been over a month already? Oh Gott, where has all the time gone...? I-it is up to Feliciano to decide when he feels strong enough to go home, but apparently that time hasn't come yet thank God. Gilbert, stop asking that. If I get used to Feliciano being around and it will be a painful parting, it is my own fault. We both knew from the start that it wasn't a visit forever. W-what we want doesn't matter. We have duties to fulfill in our own countries.
Liebe Grüße, Ludwig
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