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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 2, 2011 0:20:02 GMT -5
Doitsu-san,
Make what worse? I apologise, but I belive it is in my nature to be anxious about things.. Especially if it is very important.
W-what had happened? Did you fall down? Did you hurt yourself? That is a very good thing that your older brother has come to help you straighten out your hours. Please do not fight him when he tries to take care of you. Unless he is doing it the completely wrong way at least..
Please tell me what happened, if it does not inconvenience you.. If it does, however, I will not probe into this any further. It is not polite.. Especially when it is personal.
Ano.. Never mind then. It is nothing important anmore. Please forget about it. Just please ensure that it never happened to you. Being a nation we cannot die from it for long but the consequences during the time of recovery are quite painful. You really should never need experience that.
I see.. Still, I hope this remedy of being taken care of by your brother works for you. But if there are other reasons why you cannot sleep, nighmares or other reasons, please also try to tackle with them. Think of it as a whole cleansing experience. Therefore, when it is over, you will be at full 100% health in both mind and body.
Please take as many breaks as you need. Er.. Though I may not be able to go outside of Japan in the near future, now that I think about it. My prefectures would not allow it, I am sure..
While it may be so, It may be also for my peace of mind. When I am in the wrong, it helps ease the stress of being in the wrong when you apologise and the other party forgives you. And is'nt it normal? Or have you had diferent dogs from Alstair-san, Blackie-san and Belo-san? As for age.. Kore wa Himitsu desu.
I am glad you are spending time with them. I am sure they were happy at your simple presence.. Please continue to keep them happy.
On another note, How is you cat? Tama has been doing well and I believe he wants to send his regards to your cat. When I asked, he went "Nyahaaai". Please help me pass the message.
Japan Honda Kiku
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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 2, 2011 0:38:07 GMT -5
A-America-san..?
I-Is this something that should come to expect..? How was it possible to not even write my name on the paper..?
I-I cannot! America-san this is not appropriate at all! You are getting married! If it is anyone, I would think it is Angel-san's job to... Feel you.. A-and I am not a dog! P-Please stop this! I can hardly understand you!
But thank you for translating.
I see.. Thank you for that. I was very alarmed at the thought of your house coming alive and starting to write letters.
But it is nice to know that in America's home, your boss is kind enough to write letters to his emplyees.. Or is it that your boss writes letters to you? Un I must admit, I do not undertand the excitement of doing something like your superior does.. What if he things you are mocking him? Wouldnt you get in trouble?
Thank you for the respect, but you have been writing leters longer than me, and I am sure you are more experienced then me. I-I suppose I should give you "props" as well? Ano, Homie... I apologise, I must be doing this wrong..
May I assume you ment how I was doing? I am doing fine all things considered. Thank you for asking. But may I inquire how your slangs come about? To talk about "hanging" is quite interesting.. Unless I am taking things totally wrong.. and you are really asking what is hanging around me.. But what would "it" be..?
I am confused. I apologise.
Japan Honda Kiku
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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 2, 2011 3:09:53 GMT -5
Feli-kun,
Ah.. Please do not mind if I do.. And yes, I do still call doitsu-san by his county name. While it may be a good idea.. It would seem strange to bring it up suddenlly.. And very embarassing. Besides, I do not think he minds at all that I call him this way.. It is our standing with each other.
I do not belive I am over working. I have stated that I still have time to drink my tea and I now seem to constantly find myself at my koi pond instead of just staring at the garden.. In the water, the fish look.. very happy despite everything.. And I still have time to find myself petting Pochi when he appears around me. I think I should concentate more on my work.. I still have many things to do, and I still need to help the other countries..
How is Doitsu-san doing? He has not told me much about his situation.. Though, it would be best if you do not tell me, now that I think about it. I do not want to infringe on his private life if he does not want me too..
Welll, I did say all things considered.. so I hoped it would help balance it all out. I am sorry, my mind hardly seems like my own lately.. But please do not stress yourself by cooking for everyone and please ensure you still have time to do things that you like to enjoy. Perhaps you can take some time to teach Doitsu-san to paint? That way, you would be doing something you enjoy while keeping an eye on him so he relaxes.
Thank you very much. That gratifies me greatly.
I have already started. It seems to be working so far.. But I must still be carefull.. There is still many things that I have to do.. I cannot afford to make any mistakes! It would be very detrimental to everything!
Yes, work is very important. And there is always something to do! Or something that you can improve on.. Or something that you have never thought about or are simply not doing.. I must work harder as well! Let's do our best! E-eh? T-thank you for thinking so.. I will try my best to not let you down..
Please do your best! Doitsu-san must take care of himself well. I am glad you came before he could take my horrible idea.. What was I thinking..? I can hardly belive that would do something so horrible..
..I do not think I need to be worried about.. I will try my best not to make Feli-kun sad.. I would hate myself if I caused any rifts between our relationship.. Though I fear that has already happened in Doitsu-san's case..
..The koi can really swim cant they..?
I believe that they just wanted you to read the Atmosphere.. It is a figurative saying in the English language.. U-unless I am wrong? I apologise, Please do not take my words seriously. I might be very wrong and they really wanted you to read such a book.. But I do not know of the book called the Atmosphere.. I apologise for being so useless..
I feel like I am not myself today. Please excuse me if I had a loss of tact in any circumstance.. Pochi just appeared again.. I should feed him now.
Please take care of yourself.
Japan Honda Kiku
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Post by ludwig on Nov 2, 2011 3:53:03 GMT -5
Lieber Japan,
the more I keep telling you not to feel bad, the more you seem to apologise. If it is your nature to be anxious, then so be it. But please don't apologise for how you are. You are a wonderful person, so don't feel guilty about it.
It was more than falling down, I have to admit unfortunately. Please don't worry and please don't say "I told you so" like by brother does all the time. I had a break-down from exhaustion. But I assure you that I am already feeling better. It is not easy for me, but I will try to listen to my brother a little. *sigh*
What do you want me to assure you? What never happened to me? Japan, I don't understand what you are trying to tell me. Has something happened to you? If so, please tell me!
Uhm... No, that is nothing. Don't worry about nightmares or something. I am fine. So... If I understand you right, you don't think it is enough to rest until my body has recovered...? But I don't have time for a whole cleansing of mind and body! I already took some days off. I need to catch up on work!
You are not allowed to leave Japan anytime soon? Why is that? Please let me know if your prefectures have a reason to worry about you. Don't keep your problems to yourself when I could help you. If you need a break and can't come here, I might as well come to Japan and visit you.
That sounds reasonable, considering your nature. Well, do as you please. Yes, I had different dogs before. They seem to live longer than normal humans' dogs, but they are not as long-living as we nations are unfortunately. I am impressed how old Pochi is. Since my brother still won't let me get back to work, I have not much other to do than spending time with the dogs.
My cat is well too. Germouser and Gilcat are probably in the kitchen now and watching my brother prepare lunch. I will give them your cat's greetings, thanks.
Viele Grüße, Deutschland
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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 3, 2011 23:05:49 GMT -5
Doitsu-san,
You are very kind, but please do not exaggerate my qualities. I am not as good a person as many may think. Doitsu-san is much more a better person, and that is something to be thankful for.
I see. I hope you are feeling better now. Please do not think that of me. I do not think that I would say that to you. You were just very determined to fufill whatver quota you had set your mind to, and I find that very admirable.
Please do try and relax as much as you can, whether it means listening to your brother or not. After all, you will need much more strength now, but I am sure you would have known. You seem to be very calm considered everything. I could say that this is a very good thing. I hope you will continue to be calm.
Nothing that is too important, Doitsu-san. What had happened was only in the past. I have gained more experience form it now. I know when to stop and let myslef recuperate because of it. But that was after experiencing surprising consequences and I would hope to never wish that upon yourself or anybody else.
Are you sure? If nightmares may have an impact on your sleeping hours, I would think that is something that would be qite important. Especially since you are still recovering.
Doitsu-san, you can cleanse your mind while you cleanse the tiredness and fatigue of your body. It does not need you to double the time of your rest. Simple meditation could be anywhere, and that could help with the cleansing of the mind and the soul. It does not take much time and is very calming as well. It can also help ease your stress. It does not take as long as many think it to be. Just five minutes a day can do wonders for a tired soul.
Ah, well.. I still have alot of work to catch up on, and I find myself not doing it because I often find myslef at the Koi Pond in my garden now. That increases the amount of work that I may have. Eh? Please do not take the trouble! You must focus more on yourself! Are you certain you have the time, especially with the news on Greece? Please, think of yourself first.
Thank you for giving me lease to do so.
Is that so? I had always though they were still with you. But they keep the same name yes? Perhaps that is the reason I though that they were still the same ones. I apologise for my lack of knowledge. ..I hope I do not bring back any bad memories..
Well, spending your time with animals that you have a bond with can help ease your stress. Please continue to do so in the future.
Eh..? Ah? Tama-kun..? *Paw print* "Nyaa Konyaa Honya Anyanya."
Ano, it seems that Tama wished to sign the letter as well. I hope you do mind that. Could you please show it to your cat?
Thank you for your time. Please continue to take care of yourself.
Japan Honda Kiku
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Post by ludwig on Nov 4, 2011 16:06:11 GMT -5
Lieber Japan,
why would you think that...? You are a very kind and reliable friend, please don’t talk yourself down like that. You can’t seriously still consider me a good person seeing how I have treated you lately. You tried to help me, but I didn’t listen and even snapped at you. I am sorry.
Actually I was of the opinion that I was feeling better, but I was obviously mistaken. Just like it was wrong to assume that my work for the aid package would help to solve the crisis. It goes without saying that I wanted to get my work done, that is nothing worth of your admiration. Even more so since I wasn’t even able to get anywhere with it.
I am sorry, but I have to disappoint you again. The only reason for my calm is that I have no strength left for any other kind of reaction. When I heard that all the trouble has been for nothing... it happened again. This time the collapse was so bad that I had a mental blackout of almost four hours. My head still hurts a little and I am feeling dizzy. You must be thinking low of me now, aren’t you? I wasn’t able to get my work done right and now I am even too weak to take this realisation.
The past always influences the present, and from the way you are talking I get the feeling that whatever has happened to you in the past still affects you. It let you know when to stop...? Surprising consequences...? Do you want to hint that you experienced even worse stress symptoms? Japan, please don’t keep it to yourself if you did! Are you all right? Let me know if I can be of any help to you! Or if I can’t help you, then accept your prefectures’ assistance, please.
Don’t worry about that, please. The nightmares have nothing to do with my burnout, I can assure you of that.
Do you practise meditation yourself? I… *sigh* … I am not convinced, but I guess I can give it a try. That thi-second breakdown showed me that I can’t go on like this any longer. You were right, I have gone too far.
So do I. I also have a lot of work to catch up on and every minute my brother won’t let me get back into my office it is getting more and more and more. But… I wished I had the inner calm to sit by a koi pond. Do you feel better there? If so, I guess there is nothing wrong, especially when you can recharge a little. You must still suffer from the natural disasters and the stricken nuclear power plant, don’t you? Sorry, I haven’t given enough thought to that suggestion. A sudden visit must be an inconvenience to you. You are right… I don’t have time, now that Greece… What have I been working for day and night? I was making sacrifices for this work, but I thought if I was successful and we could overcome the crisis, then it would be best for everybody. But according to what I heard in the news, everything has been in vain (my brother didn’t want me to listen to news reports, but how could I possibly stay idle when Iowa and you hinted that there was something going on in Greece again...?). *sigh* I used to talk big, lecture the other European countries, promise them help… But in the end I failed completely. … I am sorry, I mustn’t burden you with that.
Blackie, Aster and Berlitz have been living with me for several decades now, but I indeed had other dogs before. Don’t bother, please. I didn’t even know about Pochi, so please don’t feel bad about it. Talking about dogs usually brings only back good memories for me. Ja... I will have to spend more time with them again. You should do the same, Japan. I am sure that Pochi would love to help you relief your stress.
Tama...? Your cat seems to be quite a personality. Uhm... I guess I can do you this favour, just a moment... ... I have to apologise for Germouser. Apparently he finds the blinking of the laptop clock too interesting to return the greeting. But you can inform Tama that he got his message and answered with a pat on the screen.
I also thank you for your time and taking the effort of writing to me. And... ja, I will take care of myself, this time for real. Please take care of yourself too.
Viele Grüße, Deutschland
((Burn-out final stage: feeling burned out, useless, hopeless, indifferent to everything and irritable; having bodily symptoms like headaches or insomnia ... They both seem to make it even worse for each other, don’t they? ^^; ))
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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 5, 2011 2:12:34 GMT -5
Doitsu-san,
I can, have and still do consider you a very good person and a wonderful friend. Please do not ever think you could be otherwise. Everybody had faults, and I know you have had to go through rough experiences with me in the past, the present and the future, should we continue to be friends. How can I not look over what you have done?
But your determination and strive to achieve what your goal is something to be admired, whether you managed to do so or not. Your drive and sheer tenacity and hard working efforts are something to be looked up to. Please do not think so lowly of your self.
How can that be a disappointment? Doitsu-san, have you heard of he Wheel of Fortune? When you are at your lowest, there is only one way to go. Up. I believe that you will rise again, Doitsu-san. I have faith that you can.
Doitsu-san, please. My concern is on you now. Are you alright? Have you been doing well so far? Is there anything you need? I would come over but.. There are other factors that take up much of my priority. My work for example, and my rebuilding.
Are you sure? I will not press the issue if you do not want me to, but please do not take such things so lightly.
You have not gone Too Far, where I am concerned. But please do so. I hope it works out for you.
Doitsu-san.. I.. Never mind.. I suppose I must. I keep finding myself there or walking there after all. Looking at the fish.. the water.. the waves... It feels like they could go anywhere..
I suppose I do feel calm there.. yes.. You are right.. It is..calming..
Doitsu-san, please do not hold back when sharing your problems. I do not mind to help lightened your load, even if it is just a small fraction. I would be happy and honoured to be of service you anyone of those I care about. You can use my ears to rant if you need it Doitsu-san. I will listen as attentively as I can. It is the least I could do.
Still, I think I should have talked to you more then. I know your dogs are a significant part of your everyday life.. Perhaps if I did, I would be able to know that.. Excuse me. I did not mean to shift away from the topic. Perhaps you could talk about your dogs more then? If it helps eases your mind and makes you happy, please, shall we go to that direction?
Pochi is currently with Tama right now. He has been appearing around me a lot lately, but I am glad he has found another friend to play with. If Tama needs him more, then I should leave them be.
Ah.. I will. Soon.
Iie, Doitsu-san. Thank you for writing to me despite everything that has been going on. I am grateful. Please take care of yourself then. I shall hold you to it.
Japan Honda Kiku
((see what had happened there?))
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Post by Feliciano Vargas on Nov 5, 2011 17:06:10 GMT -5
Kiku,
Would it really, ve? Just say how you were talking to me and realized that you don't use Luddi's real name even though you do with me~ Then you can ask him if you can, I'm sure he'll say yes! It's the truth, after all~ But if you like calling him...ve, how do you say his name in your language, Kiku?
Well, just remember that I will be upset if Kiku doesn't take care of himself and starts to overwork Luddi did, or if you do something really really bad for you~ Ve, Kiku should be focusing on his people and his needs before he tries to help the other nations because Kiku shouldn't waste his time on those who already have help and aren't using it~ Weren't you recently hit with an earthquake, and isn't one of your nuclear reactors acting up? Ve, you need to take care of yourself, the other nations can wait until you feel better!
Luddi hasn't been sleeping or eating like he's supposed to be, and he just is really weak and achy right now. Ve, he doesn't have the best handle on his temper either, so please be careful when you write to him, va bene? He doesn't mean what he says but he might be meaner than he expects.
Ve, it's okay, Kiku~ I think I just misunderstood you again, mio amico! I don't have the best handle on English either, so please don't be upset if I get confused! Luddi's been saying the same things though, but cooking really is not stressful at all! I like making food for the other nations... Oh, that's a good idea~ I'll teach Luddi how to draw just like I used to for Holy Rome, I think he'll like that~~ Grazie, mio amico! You always have such good ideas!
Just remember not to work for longer than ten hours a day, Kiku! Promise me you won't work longer than that, va bene? And eat three good meals a day, and sleep for at least nine hours~ Then you'll be okay, Kiku! Promise me you'll do that, per favore.
Ve, Kiku, you couldn't ever let me down! Kiku is too amazing for that!
W-What was your idea anyway, ve? I don't understand, Kiku usually has really good ideas...
N-No, Kiku, ve! Even if I was s-sad with Kiku it wouldn't cause a rift in our relationship, I know it! Kiku is just fine the way he is~~ Please don't be sad, Kiku, I'm sorry I upset you! Ve, perdonami, per favore~~
Oooooooooh~~ Ve, I think Kiku's right about the atmosphere not being a book... Angelica's been telling me to read the 'mood' too, which is apparently the same as the atmosphere, even though atmosphere is air and you can't read air and air can't have actual emotion, so I don't understand how you can read it anyway... N-No, Kiku, you're not useless! Please don't say such untrue things about yourself!
Don't worry, Kiku. I will take care of myself~ You take care of yourself too, va bene?
Feliciano
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Post by isabellaluvsu on Nov 5, 2011 18:03:57 GMT -5
Hangari-san, Go aisatsu. I have been fine, thank you for asking. How have you been lately? I apologise for that. Perhaps we can fix that from here onwards? I shall try my best to build a good relationship with you as good friends.. A pairing? Depending on which fandom, you are asking I suppose. I do enjoy many pairings from many anime and manga. And I do not mind the question Hangari-san. In fact, I was quite expecting it from you. I may have asked you the same thing should I have started the conversation. Thank you for your initiative. I did not say you were, Hangari-san. But in the same way, I suppose neither am I.. I have a feeling we may become good friends form this.. Japan Honda Kiku Japan, I'm glad! You're not in any pain? Good, I guess. Bored, as all. Don't worry about it! Really! But maybe we can hang later? World meetings are just....stuffy and loud and annoying with men just fighting out sexual tensions. And I feel bad, since your usually yelled over! Yess!! Sweet~~ Soooo, can we be like, yaoi-buds? Hmm...What fandoms do you like? It'd be interesting to hear from someone like you, since I didn't expect you to like yaoi yourself. Oh, it's no problem, really. Don't worry yourself so much, alright? That's not a bad thing, is it? -Elizabeta
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Post by ludwig on Nov 5, 2011 19:31:17 GMT -5
Lieber Japan,
thank you, but you really don’t need to lie about that. I have been horrible to you and you don’t have to play it down just to be polite. What are you talking about…? I can’t remember when I have ever had to go through rough experiences with you in the past. Of course I would be glad to stay friends, if you can forgive me some time.
No, it really isn’t worth admiring. I was just talking big, but in the end only actions count. *sigh* I hope that you are right and I can rise again. Hopefully I can at least manage so much.
Why do you change the subject so suddenly, Japan? Why won’t you tell me what happened to you? Please don’t leave me in the dark or I will have to jump to conclusions. That worries me even more, Japan. *sigh* I am aware that I will probably not be able to help you in my current state, but let me at least be there for you. Getting better, I think. I am trying to trust the people around me, accept their help and try to take things easier. Right now I even trust my brother to work on the Euro crisis, which is really hard for me.
Admittedly I don’t really understand your thoughts about the koi pond there. You… are you all right…?
Thank you for your kind offer, but I can’t possibly burden you with our European problems, let alone my inability.
Na gut… It isn’t too late for it, is it? But if I tell you about my dogs, please do so as well. I tend to talk too much when asked about them, so you will probably have to interrupt me at some point. What could I tell you...? Earlier I fell asleep on the couch while reading. Blackie has this weird habit of jumping on my lap at any given occasion, so he took a nap with me. It must have looked ridiculous, since he is a German Shephard and not exactly a little lap dog. Does Pochi do something like that? So your cat and dog are getting along well? That is good, but I still assume that both of them value your attention higher than anything else. If Tama needs him more…? What do you mean by that, Japan?
It was my pleasure. Thank you for keeping writing to me, especially after my rage. I appreciate it.
Viele Grüße, Deutschland
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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 6, 2011 21:12:00 GMT -5
Hangari-san,
Yes, I am fine enough, all things considered. Hmm.. Boredom can be quite an issue to take with. Perhaps I could help with that? I have many... ano, materials that you may be interested in that may help with boredom.
I suppose, we could once my prefectures deem me fit to even leave my country. But Please do not feel bad for me. I am quite used to it. Though I did enjoy your comment on sexual tentions between the nations, I must admit.
That would be nice indeed. Hmm.. my fandoms would be Yu Gi Oh, Final Fantasy 7, Full Metal Alchemist, and of course, the Vocaloid series. What about you? But is it that surprising to see me and yaoi together?
Of course it is not a bad thing. I only ment to say that our common interests would help us to get along well, and I hope we do get along well.
Japan Honda Kiku
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Post by Sadiq Adnan on Nov 8, 2011 2:26:19 GMT -5
Japan,
Are you alright? Greece isn't part of the problem is he? If he is just let me know and I'll make sure he doesn't bother you for a while. If there is anything I can do to help you out, just let me know; I can be over there quickly.
Your Friend, Turkey
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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 8, 2011 2:38:10 GMT -5
Turuko-san,
Yes. I belive I am fine enough. What is the matter? Have you heard of something bad?
Girisha-san has not contacted me at all for the past few months. Whatever the problem is, I am sure he is not part of it. I apologise, but what problem do you mean?
Please! You do not need to spend so much effort on me! I appreciate it your intent, but please do not waste your time on me. I am sure you have many things better to do. Girisha-san is relying on you as well right? Please, I am sure he needs you more right now. It would be best for everbody once the economic crisis is over. I hope it would be soon.
Still, thank you for your concern.
Japan Honda Kiku
((haha~! Got it~! But no barging in to other peoples homes please! XD And since this is a letter system, these letters are private, so how did Turkey know there was a problem? 0_0 Unless he's talking about the economic problem or the restucturing problem XD))
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Post by Sadiq Adnan on Nov 8, 2011 2:51:08 GMT -5
Japan I just haven't seen you around lately, and when I do see a glimpse of you, you always look so upset. Sorry, old habbit to blame Greece for stuff... I need try to quit doing that. Friends are never a waste of time, and since you are one of the few friends I have at the moment, you could never waste my time. I am helping out Greece since we are currently able to be civil with each other. We do have our friendly moments. Do not worry about Greece or myself, we are doing good currently. Turkey. ((Won't barge in, I would come over and knock. Woops, didn't know that. Learning on the fly I'll keep that in mind for the future. Hope I covered for my slip up.))
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Post by Honda Kiku on Nov 8, 2011 3:07:00 GMT -5
Turuko-san,
Ah.. I see. Please do not worry about me. I am fine enough.. though where have you seen me? I have not left my house-no Japan since a very long time. Has my prefectures been posting pictues of me without my consent?
Tomodachi ka..? Thank you.. You are very kind to consider me a friend. Still, please, I am sure you have many more important things to do for yourself. How has your situation been lately?
That is a good thing I believe. I am glad you are begining to work out your differences. Please keep up the hard work. I am sure Girisha-san is thankful for your efforts. I only wished I could have helped you all..
Japan Hinda Kiku
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