Post by Honda Kiku on Aug 17, 2011 15:02:37 GMT -5
Okay, so excuse the mistakes. and since I wrote this a while ago, once I have the chance, I will be editing and re writing some paragraphs. By me. My name on Fanfiction is iOtakuIZZY, if your wondering.
RATED: T, to be safe.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own hetalia, blah blah blah. You get the point.
PAIRING: ChinaxJapan
WARNING: One shot.
DESCRIPTION (used on FF): With China leaving Japan as a young boy with a heartbreaking goodbye, 3000 years have passed since that day and a scar is still left in both hearts. 3000 years of bloody war have scarred them both, but could a light help them though those dark ages?
I remember the day perfectly,
Like it was Yesterday.
But it wasn't.
Its been over 3000 years.
Filled of angst, chaos, and wars.
Ever since that day,
The day you left,
You have never been the same,
Wang Yao.
"I'm so proud of you Japan, Aru!"
The day he was going to leave me, I remember perfectly.
Each ray of the moon's embrace hit each sakura petal that showered down on us perfectly, The few clicks of a bamboo shoot tranquilly rounding and echoing off the wooden fenced area I was bound into, and the occasional sploosh of a koi that would never know of what was going on in my, nor his head.
We were in my homeland.
As he ghosted a hand over my chin, shadowed by the clear sky, he leaned over and uncovered a smile. A smile he never had shown to any of his other children. It sent shivers down my small body.
I was still young, and did not know better, or what was going on, or how much I loved him;
Until now.
With a quick shift of his flats, I was corressed in a fluttering red material and his perfect scent of freshly cut bamboo.
"You grow up so fast...You will become a strong nation. I know it, aru!"
We sat there for a tranquil moment linked together, his heartbeat matching the clicks of bamboo.
He has told me I am patient and kind. Is that true? He's told the others the same thing, as well.
"Ah!" I broke the space between us with small arms, pointing and curious. "China, Look!"
Like a gold, illuminating lantern on the darkest of days, a light had begun to make its way through our sights. It glistened upon the koi pond, across the lillies and each sakura petal it passed, and just...stopped.
"Oh, its a firefly, Japan! Want to catch one?" Soon what seemed to be millions erupted as from nowhere and we tralied around my garden, catching them together.
Then it all went...hazy? Nani?
The emitted light from the fire flies were as warm as China's praise and embrace. Maybe because...I only wanted that warmth...that emitted light and praise and love from him?
Was it wrong of me to ever think he loved me back?
I had never seen a firefly ever since that fateful night.
I had felt my body almost violently tremble, like repelling anything from the outside world. I held my breath for a moment, hearing an echo of familiar voices I could almost make out.
"Veh, Whats wrong with Nihon?"
"I don't know actually. A bad dream?"
I curled up into a pathetic, weak ball, clenching my throbbing head and tucked my knees in before I flung my whole body up in a frenzy. Flashes of gashes and wounds on my body flashed before my tightly shut eyes, China bleeding from the head dramatically and falling bandages that were torn and looked extremely old fell from his burnt-looking arms. Dead soilders and the scent of death filled the battlefield we were in, as a tear slipped his eye. He bit his lip, looked up at me with a look of dread, and-
"China-San!" I yelped, never actually hearing my voice that loud. Hearing a small gasp from behind, I cautiously turned and saw Italy and Germany with the word 'worried' painted onto their faces. They moved in closer, Italy laying a hand on my slumped shoulder. It was Just a dream? But I knew it was a very true dream from the past.
"Hey, Nihon?" Italy's voice perked up from my left, Germany's look of confusion drilling into my head on the right.
"China...I hope he's alright..." I sighed in relief. I was surrounded by people who cared.
"Japan, what happened? Me and Doitsu were worried about you during the meeting!" Italy leaned in closer, planting his hands on the disheveled bed I sat on, springs creaking and clicking.
"M-Meeting? What meeting? And if you don't mind me asking where I might be?" I wasnt in the comforts of my enclosed home...or my futon. It looked like a small, ordinary hotel or guest room of some sort.
"Your at a guestroom in the G8 meeting building. We were at a G8 meeting, and you passed out. You had a high tempurature, so we had to stop the meeting. Italy was right, we were really worried. You could of told us you were sick in the first place." Germany stated sternly.
"Especially China! I dunno why he was so worried...He carried you all the way here. He insisted to carry you, himself."
Ugh...This is what I get for watching anime all night. But...I made everyone worry...about me?
"You were all worried...about me? Gomenasai...But I do feel better." I breathed calmly, gazing at the two faces. I'm so use to being in a family of four, like one of the millions of fireflies. It just felt out of place getting the attention I was getting at that moment.
But China...He would be the light of the firefly. Comforting, enlightening encouraging, and warm. No matter how hard I tried, I could never stand out of the other three. I was always in the shadow of his glow.
My glow was never the brightest at that,
But I love his glow.
I love him.
Something cold had met my cheeks.
"What is this? I don't understand...Why am I crying?" I gragually cupped my face. I probably looked shameful and pitiful, returning to my curled-up state.
"Japan..." Germany's bent over to my level.
"Japan? Are you crying?"
"H-Hai. But I don't know why the tears wont stop." I'm being so weak! And in front of my Allies!
A silent moment passed with small sniffles and a sigh from Germany.
"Japan." He said more seriously and huskily. I pointed my attention to him.
"Yes?" I responded crackily as he grabbed my shoulder and shook it a bit in seriousness.
"You should go see China. There's no training today. It would be a relief for both of you."
"...Hai. That would probably be the best suggestion at this time. I have to thank him for carrying me and apologize for the trouble."
I shifted my weight off the bed and stood straight, watching as the two exited the room and silently closed the door behind them, letting me take off the baggy shirt, revealing some permanent scars that I ran my fingers over. The puckered, wrinkled skin gave me shivers as I slowly bandadges my chest up, letting some new scars heal under the soft material. I slid my trusty jacket over pale skin along with my snowy pants and left in a hurry.
I managed to menouver around the buzzing streets oh China, but it was becoming evening quickly, and It became harder to see where I was going and where I'd been. Luckily, I passed by Hong Kong, and he showed me the way. I realized I was going in circles...Watashi no baka...
The memories in this house...
Flashes of us four, Korea, Hong Kong, Taiwan, and I chasing after a ball were just barely there before my eyes. The next of us in an older stage, fighting on the patio. The next of...China and I sitting on the patio, pointing to stars, discussing my future, and moongazing. I grabbed my head and shook those thoughts away and I opened the vined fence wider with a Kreeeek~ menouvering over the scatteres stone path, surrounded by bushes. Farther in, towering bamboo stalks. I saw a large clearing that the moon managed to coress right where the patio lay, lush, grassy waves filling it to the brim of the tall patio. The grass was soft, and I remember tumbling in it as a child, giggling and having fun. The silent shushing of the wind agenst the grass put my mind and brain at a stand.
How do I remember so many things as a child?
I dug my hand in my pocket and flipped my cell phone open.
"7:36...I hope this is okay..." In seconds, I was already knocking on his front door with a metal ring in my fist, layed in a dragon's mouth stuck onto his auburn door.
My heart sunk. A moment passed, and I had skipped a breath at the next sound that rung in my ears:
"J-Japan?"
"I-Err...Yes, Hello. How have you been, Chin-"
"Why are you here so late?" China blinked and slouched at the door in a green, long sleeved shirt with golden trimmings and black leggings. "Its almost 8, Aru! Come inside for some tea..."
"Are you sure?"
"Of course. I mean, you came this whole way. Why wouldn't I?"
I took a shaky step forward as he reached out behind me and shut the door behind us.
Everything was organized and his whole house smelled like water-lillies. I realized flowers were set up in traditional pots that were set in the corners. His wood floors were polished, the walls had some small design, and everything seemed like he cleaned it for my arrival. But nothing had changed since 3000 years. It looked the same as before.
"What are you staring at? Its not like you havent seen my house before. Come sit down, Aru." China gave a small signal with his hands to a small table. "I'll be a moment, kay?"
"Okay..." I sat at the small table and watched China exit into the kitchen. I gazed at the blank wall and tried to repel any negative thoughts that came into mind. It didn't take him long to come back with a tea set in one hand and a small platter of some sort of dessert in the other, both perfectly balanced with a panda locked onto his back. I watched as he carefully put both down infront of us, then rested his hand in his palms.
"So tell me. What brings you here? Are you feeling better?"
I begun to twittle my fingers. "Well, I'm feeling much better, thank you. I just came over to apologize for the trouble."
"Hnn?" He begun as he poured himself a small glassful of tea. I watched some spare leaves and him gaze down. It was all perfect. He was just perfect and beautiful. "What are you apologizing for?"
"Ah, Earlier. I'm sorry for the trouble of having you...carry me. Its an embarrassing thought, actually..." I chuckled nervously, but turned away quickly. It just got harder and harder to look him in the eye...!
"When you passed out you mean? I offered! Don't worry! You worried me so much, Japan. I thought something really bad happened, and it just feels good knowing your infront of me, safe, aru."
I felt his comforting gaze still on me, but our eyes didn't meet. I felt that same warmth and glow once he said that it felt good being with me. It was a young, innocent glow. I havent seen it in so long. I've tried to shut out everyone elses glow for his, and now, I felt like I belonged in the millions of fireflies. I felt at home.
"You still didn't have to do that. Really..."
"I wanted to. I care about you. Of course I would of done that."
I froze.
"W-What?" I had nothing else to say.
"We can bring the tea outside, if you want. Lets talk out there."
"Hai." I breathed, picking up a platter and getting my shoes. What a relief...until I found ourselves sitting on the porch together. We shared a silent moment together. He gazed up at the moon, making his eyes shimmer and his face glow up, as I glared down, thinking of what to say.
"China, we've fought too much." I threaded my eyebrows and pulled every single inch of me to look at him straight forward. He turned with a confused face.
"I know, aru." He sighed. "I miss the times when you depended on me."
"I've been thinking about that, too, actually."
"About what?"
"When I was younger. When we didn't fight."
"Yeah. Our bosses just never got along, when at the same time, we did, aru"
"I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"For not trying to influence my boss to stop those things."
"...There was nothing we could do. We can't worry about ourselves when theres wars going on."
"Well now, we can just act as humans, since nothing is between us right now. Right, Kiku?"
"I guess your right, Wang."
"Sometimes, you have to worry about yourself, Kiku, aru! Even if we are nations."
"...I can't"
"Aiyah? Why?"
"...Because I care about you more." I buried my crimson face. I had regret saying that. But the reaction I had expected was different. Like a fireflies glow before my eyes, I was suddenly wrapped in the same warmth as a child. He smelled the same wonderous scent, and what I really saw was his head agenst my sholder, arms wrapped around my waiste. I reached a hand up to his head and gently stroked it. His warmth spread to my body fast, and I gently closed my eyes, leaning into the embrace.
"You have always been my favorite out of the four. I loved you the most, aru." He inhaled deeply, and I felt the exale on my bare skin, his heart slowing. "And I still love you."
Those exact words seemed to engrave themselves into my still heart, leaving my body in a state of tranquillity. Everything around us seemed to flush away.
"Watashi wa anata o totemo aishite."
At that moment, a cloud moved away from the moon, giving me a look at his perfect face as our arms were latched on. He breathed heavily onto my neck as I examined his big rounded auburn eyes stare back into mine; his hair pulled back neatly, peach lips spread, and I realized why he pulled back. I felt his lips begin to move on mine, his hands lifted onto my neck, and I soon found my way onto matching our lip movements pressed lightly agenst each other. As light as it was, it was with passion, and we soon pressed up agenst each other with added force until his tounge rubbed agenst my lips, asking for permission. He explored my wanting mouth as I peeped an eye open to see his shut, long eyelashes standing out, just barely grazing his flushed cheeks. I loved him since I was little, but now I didn't just love him as a parental figure. He was such a great man...So emotional, leading, inspiring, illuminating, just like a firefly and its glow. I love that glow. So much. I love him, and he loves me.
"A-Ah! China!" I broke the deep kiss. "Look!"
A new, golden light brimmed my cheek as I watched China's eyes swirve and follow it. "It's a Firefl-" I had remembered that night, but I havent seen a firefly since that fateful day.
"Ah, a firefly!" China giggled an innocent laugh and carefully cupped his hands around it, luering it inbetween our faces. "See?" It lit up his hands, his face, and mine. The glow was...warm, just like those three words: "I love you." I only wanted that glow from him.
But why would a firefly appear here and now? After 3000 years, why right now?
I will be adding italics and holding and lines later, but I hope this is alright! Arigato!
RATED: T, to be safe.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own hetalia, blah blah blah. You get the point.
PAIRING: ChinaxJapan
WARNING: One shot.
DESCRIPTION (used on FF): With China leaving Japan as a young boy with a heartbreaking goodbye, 3000 years have passed since that day and a scar is still left in both hearts. 3000 years of bloody war have scarred them both, but could a light help them though those dark ages?
I remember the day perfectly,
Like it was Yesterday.
But it wasn't.
Its been over 3000 years.
Filled of angst, chaos, and wars.
Ever since that day,
The day you left,
You have never been the same,
Wang Yao.
"I'm so proud of you Japan, Aru!"
The day he was going to leave me, I remember perfectly.
Each ray of the moon's embrace hit each sakura petal that showered down on us perfectly, The few clicks of a bamboo shoot tranquilly rounding and echoing off the wooden fenced area I was bound into, and the occasional sploosh of a koi that would never know of what was going on in my, nor his head.
We were in my homeland.
As he ghosted a hand over my chin, shadowed by the clear sky, he leaned over and uncovered a smile. A smile he never had shown to any of his other children. It sent shivers down my small body.
I was still young, and did not know better, or what was going on, or how much I loved him;
Until now.
With a quick shift of his flats, I was corressed in a fluttering red material and his perfect scent of freshly cut bamboo.
"You grow up so fast...You will become a strong nation. I know it, aru!"
We sat there for a tranquil moment linked together, his heartbeat matching the clicks of bamboo.
He has told me I am patient and kind. Is that true? He's told the others the same thing, as well.
"Ah!" I broke the space between us with small arms, pointing and curious. "China, Look!"
Like a gold, illuminating lantern on the darkest of days, a light had begun to make its way through our sights. It glistened upon the koi pond, across the lillies and each sakura petal it passed, and just...stopped.
"Oh, its a firefly, Japan! Want to catch one?" Soon what seemed to be millions erupted as from nowhere and we tralied around my garden, catching them together.
Then it all went...hazy? Nani?
The emitted light from the fire flies were as warm as China's praise and embrace. Maybe because...I only wanted that warmth...that emitted light and praise and love from him?
Was it wrong of me to ever think he loved me back?
I had never seen a firefly ever since that fateful night.
I had felt my body almost violently tremble, like repelling anything from the outside world. I held my breath for a moment, hearing an echo of familiar voices I could almost make out.
"Veh, Whats wrong with Nihon?"
"I don't know actually. A bad dream?"
I curled up into a pathetic, weak ball, clenching my throbbing head and tucked my knees in before I flung my whole body up in a frenzy. Flashes of gashes and wounds on my body flashed before my tightly shut eyes, China bleeding from the head dramatically and falling bandages that were torn and looked extremely old fell from his burnt-looking arms. Dead soilders and the scent of death filled the battlefield we were in, as a tear slipped his eye. He bit his lip, looked up at me with a look of dread, and-
"China-San!" I yelped, never actually hearing my voice that loud. Hearing a small gasp from behind, I cautiously turned and saw Italy and Germany with the word 'worried' painted onto their faces. They moved in closer, Italy laying a hand on my slumped shoulder. It was Just a dream? But I knew it was a very true dream from the past.
"Hey, Nihon?" Italy's voice perked up from my left, Germany's look of confusion drilling into my head on the right.
"China...I hope he's alright..." I sighed in relief. I was surrounded by people who cared.
"Japan, what happened? Me and Doitsu were worried about you during the meeting!" Italy leaned in closer, planting his hands on the disheveled bed I sat on, springs creaking and clicking.
"M-Meeting? What meeting? And if you don't mind me asking where I might be?" I wasnt in the comforts of my enclosed home...or my futon. It looked like a small, ordinary hotel or guest room of some sort.
"Your at a guestroom in the G8 meeting building. We were at a G8 meeting, and you passed out. You had a high tempurature, so we had to stop the meeting. Italy was right, we were really worried. You could of told us you were sick in the first place." Germany stated sternly.
"Especially China! I dunno why he was so worried...He carried you all the way here. He insisted to carry you, himself."
Ugh...This is what I get for watching anime all night. But...I made everyone worry...about me?
"You were all worried...about me? Gomenasai...But I do feel better." I breathed calmly, gazing at the two faces. I'm so use to being in a family of four, like one of the millions of fireflies. It just felt out of place getting the attention I was getting at that moment.
But China...He would be the light of the firefly. Comforting, enlightening encouraging, and warm. No matter how hard I tried, I could never stand out of the other three. I was always in the shadow of his glow.
My glow was never the brightest at that,
But I love his glow.
I love him.
Something cold had met my cheeks.
"What is this? I don't understand...Why am I crying?" I gragually cupped my face. I probably looked shameful and pitiful, returning to my curled-up state.
"Japan..." Germany's bent over to my level.
"Japan? Are you crying?"
"H-Hai. But I don't know why the tears wont stop." I'm being so weak! And in front of my Allies!
A silent moment passed with small sniffles and a sigh from Germany.
"Japan." He said more seriously and huskily. I pointed my attention to him.
"Yes?" I responded crackily as he grabbed my shoulder and shook it a bit in seriousness.
"You should go see China. There's no training today. It would be a relief for both of you."
"...Hai. That would probably be the best suggestion at this time. I have to thank him for carrying me and apologize for the trouble."
I shifted my weight off the bed and stood straight, watching as the two exited the room and silently closed the door behind them, letting me take off the baggy shirt, revealing some permanent scars that I ran my fingers over. The puckered, wrinkled skin gave me shivers as I slowly bandadges my chest up, letting some new scars heal under the soft material. I slid my trusty jacket over pale skin along with my snowy pants and left in a hurry.
I managed to menouver around the buzzing streets oh China, but it was becoming evening quickly, and It became harder to see where I was going and where I'd been. Luckily, I passed by Hong Kong, and he showed me the way. I realized I was going in circles...Watashi no baka...
The memories in this house...
Flashes of us four, Korea, Hong Kong, Taiwan, and I chasing after a ball were just barely there before my eyes. The next of us in an older stage, fighting on the patio. The next of...China and I sitting on the patio, pointing to stars, discussing my future, and moongazing. I grabbed my head and shook those thoughts away and I opened the vined fence wider with a Kreeeek~ menouvering over the scatteres stone path, surrounded by bushes. Farther in, towering bamboo stalks. I saw a large clearing that the moon managed to coress right where the patio lay, lush, grassy waves filling it to the brim of the tall patio. The grass was soft, and I remember tumbling in it as a child, giggling and having fun. The silent shushing of the wind agenst the grass put my mind and brain at a stand.
How do I remember so many things as a child?
I dug my hand in my pocket and flipped my cell phone open.
"7:36...I hope this is okay..." In seconds, I was already knocking on his front door with a metal ring in my fist, layed in a dragon's mouth stuck onto his auburn door.
My heart sunk. A moment passed, and I had skipped a breath at the next sound that rung in my ears:
"J-Japan?"
"I-Err...Yes, Hello. How have you been, Chin-"
"Why are you here so late?" China blinked and slouched at the door in a green, long sleeved shirt with golden trimmings and black leggings. "Its almost 8, Aru! Come inside for some tea..."
"Are you sure?"
"Of course. I mean, you came this whole way. Why wouldn't I?"
I took a shaky step forward as he reached out behind me and shut the door behind us.
Everything was organized and his whole house smelled like water-lillies. I realized flowers were set up in traditional pots that were set in the corners. His wood floors were polished, the walls had some small design, and everything seemed like he cleaned it for my arrival. But nothing had changed since 3000 years. It looked the same as before.
"What are you staring at? Its not like you havent seen my house before. Come sit down, Aru." China gave a small signal with his hands to a small table. "I'll be a moment, kay?"
"Okay..." I sat at the small table and watched China exit into the kitchen. I gazed at the blank wall and tried to repel any negative thoughts that came into mind. It didn't take him long to come back with a tea set in one hand and a small platter of some sort of dessert in the other, both perfectly balanced with a panda locked onto his back. I watched as he carefully put both down infront of us, then rested his hand in his palms.
"So tell me. What brings you here? Are you feeling better?"
I begun to twittle my fingers. "Well, I'm feeling much better, thank you. I just came over to apologize for the trouble."
"Hnn?" He begun as he poured himself a small glassful of tea. I watched some spare leaves and him gaze down. It was all perfect. He was just perfect and beautiful. "What are you apologizing for?"
"Ah, Earlier. I'm sorry for the trouble of having you...carry me. Its an embarrassing thought, actually..." I chuckled nervously, but turned away quickly. It just got harder and harder to look him in the eye...!
"When you passed out you mean? I offered! Don't worry! You worried me so much, Japan. I thought something really bad happened, and it just feels good knowing your infront of me, safe, aru."
I felt his comforting gaze still on me, but our eyes didn't meet. I felt that same warmth and glow once he said that it felt good being with me. It was a young, innocent glow. I havent seen it in so long. I've tried to shut out everyone elses glow for his, and now, I felt like I belonged in the millions of fireflies. I felt at home.
"You still didn't have to do that. Really..."
"I wanted to. I care about you. Of course I would of done that."
I froze.
"W-What?" I had nothing else to say.
"We can bring the tea outside, if you want. Lets talk out there."
"Hai." I breathed, picking up a platter and getting my shoes. What a relief...until I found ourselves sitting on the porch together. We shared a silent moment together. He gazed up at the moon, making his eyes shimmer and his face glow up, as I glared down, thinking of what to say.
"China, we've fought too much." I threaded my eyebrows and pulled every single inch of me to look at him straight forward. He turned with a confused face.
"I know, aru." He sighed. "I miss the times when you depended on me."
"I've been thinking about that, too, actually."
"About what?"
"When I was younger. When we didn't fight."
"Yeah. Our bosses just never got along, when at the same time, we did, aru"
"I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"For not trying to influence my boss to stop those things."
"...There was nothing we could do. We can't worry about ourselves when theres wars going on."
"Well now, we can just act as humans, since nothing is between us right now. Right, Kiku?"
"I guess your right, Wang."
"Sometimes, you have to worry about yourself, Kiku, aru! Even if we are nations."
"...I can't"
"Aiyah? Why?"
"...Because I care about you more." I buried my crimson face. I had regret saying that. But the reaction I had expected was different. Like a fireflies glow before my eyes, I was suddenly wrapped in the same warmth as a child. He smelled the same wonderous scent, and what I really saw was his head agenst my sholder, arms wrapped around my waiste. I reached a hand up to his head and gently stroked it. His warmth spread to my body fast, and I gently closed my eyes, leaning into the embrace.
"You have always been my favorite out of the four. I loved you the most, aru." He inhaled deeply, and I felt the exale on my bare skin, his heart slowing. "And I still love you."
Those exact words seemed to engrave themselves into my still heart, leaving my body in a state of tranquillity. Everything around us seemed to flush away.
"Watashi wa anata o totemo aishite."
At that moment, a cloud moved away from the moon, giving me a look at his perfect face as our arms were latched on. He breathed heavily onto my neck as I examined his big rounded auburn eyes stare back into mine; his hair pulled back neatly, peach lips spread, and I realized why he pulled back. I felt his lips begin to move on mine, his hands lifted onto my neck, and I soon found my way onto matching our lip movements pressed lightly agenst each other. As light as it was, it was with passion, and we soon pressed up agenst each other with added force until his tounge rubbed agenst my lips, asking for permission. He explored my wanting mouth as I peeped an eye open to see his shut, long eyelashes standing out, just barely grazing his flushed cheeks. I loved him since I was little, but now I didn't just love him as a parental figure. He was such a great man...So emotional, leading, inspiring, illuminating, just like a firefly and its glow. I love that glow. So much. I love him, and he loves me.
"A-Ah! China!" I broke the deep kiss. "Look!"
A new, golden light brimmed my cheek as I watched China's eyes swirve and follow it. "It's a Firefl-" I had remembered that night, but I havent seen a firefly since that fateful day.
"Ah, a firefly!" China giggled an innocent laugh and carefully cupped his hands around it, luering it inbetween our faces. "See?" It lit up his hands, his face, and mine. The glow was...warm, just like those three words: "I love you." I only wanted that glow from him.
But why would a firefly appear here and now? After 3000 years, why right now?
I will be adding italics and holding and lines later, but I hope this is alright! Arigato!