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Post by Alexis Jones on Jun 9, 2012 0:48:49 GMT -5
Papa,
please treat me a child again while it lasts
Alexis
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jun 9, 2012 0:50:16 GMT -5
Alexis,
You're always my little girl. I love you so much.
Love, Daddy
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Post by Feliciano Vargas on Jun 10, 2012 4:05:50 GMT -5
Alfred,
Ve, it's fine, you don't need to understand~ After all, it's my silly logic, nothing to worry about or think too much on~ I know that keeping contact is important, but taking care of oneself is more important and if they are working too much to write to me without having to sacrifice something they need to keep themselves happy and healthy then I d-don't want them to~ ...Si, I know we're a family, I know! I was just...I was just worrying for nothing. So don't worry about me! I've figured some things out, and I shouldn't be worrying like this! At least not enough to bother other people. After all, if I want them to write to me, then I should talk to them myself, not ask other people to do it for me! Oh, Alfred, I know people will understand if you don't write when you're busy or bothered with something else. Just don't vanish completely out of nowhere and never come back and things will be fine~ I'm glad she's okay. Please keep an eye on her, and I'm sure she'll keep an eye on you. I'm so happy for the both of you being able to find each other, ve. I don't know if I've told you that yet. Oh, no, Alfred~ You don't have to do that! Stressing her into writing to me just isn't good, si? I've gone longer without her talking to me before, so really, you don't need to tell her to keep writing to me if she is too busy, too tired, or too anything to write to me on her own. Communication is important, si, but I'd rather her neglect contact if it's to help herself.
Si, that's what Luddi's been saying too, but sometimes you have to rush yourself a little too; To keep from overthinking things, si? Ve, I think I understand why... I mean, we learned English the old way, or at least I did. I know you had fun changing Arthur's words so that the language was yours, but I was taught how to speak the older way, and so it's harder to learn the new ones. That's what I think anyway--though it's...a little strange that you aren't excited like you usually are about learning the new slang. But considering the situation, I can understand... Living a second...fantasy life? Ve? But...to most our lives would be considered fantastical! Why would we need to live a second one? But I'm glad that you're enjoying it, that you all are~ No, Alfred, even if you're not hungry for a lot of food you still have to eat at least a little! You have to keep your body healthy in order to keep your mind at its best, so that you can be able to think calmly. Even if you feel queasy you have to eat. It's as simple as that, ve~
Is it~? Bene~ Si, si si! I'm glad to have someone who can actually get him to listen. I don't think my smacks have been strong enough, even though I've been trying my absolute best... But that could just be that he doesn't trust in my words as much as he would yours, since you know him better than I do! despite me being related to him and being in relatively constant contact from the very beginning under Nonno until now... So, per favore, do your best to help too. Veee... I know how he feels, and understand his reasoning, but He can't continue pushing away like this, ve. So I hope that with our combined efforts he'll come to his senses~
Well, I don't know if it's helping just yet, but I'll do my best~ Grazie for the advice~~
Feliciano
P.S. Ve, then how can I say no~? I would be honored to be one of your groomsmen~ Help..? I'm not sure I'll be very useful with helping you remembering something when I don't know what you were doing that could be forgotten, or what it would have been for, but... I'll do my best to help you remember!
P.P.S. You'd better take good care of yourself~ You have people who care for you, you can't let them worry too much! Do not let things drag you down, let your emotions run their course, not control you.
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jun 15, 2012 15:08:06 GMT -5
Sepp,
So you're letting someone else tell you what's real and not? I thought you were better than that. You should know that the good times were real for yourself. Yes there is something a hero can do for you. A hero can keep talking to you and attempting to slap you upside the head with words since he can't do it in person because you're nice to talk to. Dude you need to stop over thinking the things that I say. I didn't say you needed to change to be saved. I said that you are saved so that you have the opportunity to grow and change and everyone is worth saving for that. I don't see that you need to change at all besides CHEERING THE FUCK UP! I mean seriously!
Fine so Hamish is being an ass to you right now. Don't let that dictate your life. I'm sure he's just having a man-period or something. God I can't tell you how many times I've had to put up with that from the kids. He's just being moody and unreasonable and you shouldn't let his bad mood drag you down into the same fucking hole. That's what you can do.
Dude seriously. You are loved by people. People care about you. If people did not care about you we would not be so worried about you that we want to leave our country when we can't right now to make sure you don't do something stupid. I consider you a good person who's good to talk to whom I wish would get it through his head that I'm sorry already for being horrible at remembering things after having his mail stolen so he missed writing to his oh so very amazing Bavarian Buddy. Obviously you have the wrong dictionary for translating the speech of younger people. I'll have to buy you a new one for your birthday and see if that helps. Dude I don't find your misery entertaining I find it horrible but it was better than trying to think about my own ok. I shouldn't have said anything and I thought I had crossed that out better. My apologies. I was hoping that maybe I could help you feel better because then I could know I've done one thing lately that wasn't bad. Oh for god's sake that's a lie and you damn well know it. You will so be happy again eventually and you've been happy before. And everyone has times like that in life. Hiding from them never works, you deal with them you don't hide and you get stronger for it.
I don't know, I don't have the answers there. Just try and deal with them and I'm sure they'll prove you wrong. I could never bring myself to call him that. He's not one of my children and he doesn't act like a child so I'll call him what he is. He's G-Man. It would be weird to call him a boy when he's acting more grown-up than I do most of the time!
I don't know what to tell you there Sepp. To me it sounds like it's Hamish who has his own problems he needs to deal with and unfortunately because of that he's been making it your problem too as his friend. If he won't come to you so you can talk in person maybe it's time for you to take it in your own hands and go there if you feel this is a friendship worth fighting for. And don't take any potions because he has no right to force you to forget if you don't want to. Sounds like you both need to get your damn heads together and see the whole world for what it is rather than the pictures that you've painted in your minds.
You are being a thickheaded idiot. Since when have you tricked me into writing you? All you did was send a letter that prompted me to smack myself in the face because I couldn't believe I hadn't gotten back to you since I lost my letters. I was really happy to hear from you again. I can promise I won't disappear on you if you can promise you won't vanish on me. You're not a failure and no one can please everybody. It's impossible. And if you take that potion I swear to god I will track someone down who can fix it whether you like it or not.
You are going the wrong direction there and taking this way to far to the extreme and you will damn well come back or I will make you. There could be.
Sincerely, Alfred
P.S. Nope you see you keep miscounting there. I can't speak for anyone else but I care too so there's one more. Geeze, check your math. I thought I'm the country that's supposed to suck at math. It's no joke Sepp. I'll let her know as soon as I can get ahold of her. that kid seriously! Okay... I guess I'll just forget it then because I have no idea what's going on there. AND YOU LIE! They are boring! There's no TV or Sports or Loud Music or Loud Talking or ANYTHING interesting.*
P.P.S. The only man I consider my real brother right now is my best man. The rest of them don't care to talk to me. You are my good friend and my sidekick. You are someone close to me Seppkick.
*I'm pretty sure he's exaggerating there even for Alfred.
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Post by josephseidl on Jun 16, 2012 19:55:29 GMT -5
Servus Alfred,
but I’ve been wrong about so many things lately and who else could I trust when it’s about the times I’ve spent with Hamish…? When he says he has only been pretending and it has all been a lie, it has to be true. Thanks, but… as I said earlier, “nice” is the little brother of “asshole” and “fuck off”. N-not…? But… Alfred, s-sorry. I am sorry. Ja, you are right. I am ungrateful and incapable. Yes, I should cheer up and be happy, right? I mean, my country is doing great, I am healthy, I am safe,… and still I sit here and cry in my beer. I d-don’t know what’s the matter, Alfred. I am sorry. I know, I should be glad, but… I can’t “cheer the fuck up”. I am sorry, I am ungrateful and incapable.
N-nein, Hamish is not being an ass. He must have a reason. I am sure that he has a reason to stay away from me, and not to write back… or to send me that potion. It was my mistake, I ruined everything when I got angry about his letter to Gilbert. Hamish isn’t an ass, I am.
… okay. I am sorry to put you out like this. I won’t do something stupid, I won’t do anything at all. It’s pointless anyway. … No, don’t apologize. It’s your own decision whom to write and whom not, the same goes to Hamish. I have no right to get upset when you prefer not to write to me. Sorry. … And sorry again. I heard what happened with your kids and I know that it’s a horrible thing to lose a younger relative, my cousin passed away as well. I am sorry, Alfred. You are right, compared to that I am indeed complaining about nothing. Sorry for being ungrateful like that. I should feel ashamed. What are you talking about…? You haven’t done anything that was bad. I am the only failure here. … How…? When I think about the future I see only hopelessness. Every day… waking up, going to work, returning home, walking the dog, eating, sleeping,… Every day is the same with no hopes… Where is the point in standing up and getting dressed when some hours later I’ll get changed and go to bed again? … I am sorry for being weak like that.
Feliciano is the only one still dealing with me, but… that will be over soon too, now that he and Lutz finally got together. Just saying, doesn’t matter.
Thought so… That’s okay, sorry for burdening you with that. … I can’t go there. I can’t even find him if he doesn’t want me to. Dylan and Arthur don’t know where Hamish is either. When I called one of his children only said that he isn’t there. And I can’t… make it. I don’t know if this friendship is worth fighting for. I don’t know anything anymore. I don’t know about the potion either… I want to talk to him, but I can’t force him.
… I-I guess I am. Sorry. Sorry for the inconvenience. You said it yourself, you didn’t even think about writing to me if I hadn’t sent you a letter. Sorry for prompting you to smack yourself in the face. I shouldn’t have bothered you. Okay… If you insist, I will stay right here and not do anything. Would that make you feel better?
How come is it the wrong direction…? I am not allowed to join a monastery, I am not allowed to disappear, I am not allowed to bother anybody, I am not allowed to get angry about people ignoring me, I am not allowed to be sad either, neither to call myself a burden or a failure, I am not allowed to leave out meals, stay up all night, skip work… Why can’t I make any decisions for myself? … But fine. For all I care I will stay and I won’t do anything anymore, would that make you all feel better? No.
Pfiadi, Joseph
P.S.: Okay, then make it three. It doesn’t matter anyway. Alex sent me a single-line letter last week, but that was all I heard from her. Do so, and I don’t know either. Have you ever been in a monastery? Well, I have. They are not boring.
P.P.S.: Sorry for asking.
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jun 18, 2012 9:35:14 GMT -5
Feliciano,
I guess you're right and I don't have to understand, but it doesn't keep me from wishing I could grasp what it is that brought about such a mindset. Fel-man there's no health sacrifice that would have to be made to keep in touch with you she's doing fine we've just been a bit distracted with games and stuff in free time... And I'm sure keeping in touch with you is something that can help them stay healthy an happier as well. It's good for people, for their mental health, to keep in touch with the people who matter to them. I can't say if you were worrying for nothing or not, but if you've been worried about it being less of a family that's all the more reason to keep in touch. Try and plan something to be together just you guys or something because bonds like that are important and you are a family. Feliciano it's fine to worry and even to bring it to your friends, it's no bother to be able to be there for you. I know they'll understand, but that doesn't always make me feel any better about having to lose touch for a while.
I promise I'll keep an eye on her. She's one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I can't recall if you've said it before, but thanks it's nice to know. It's not stressing her, just reminding her because she means to and she forgets. She's not neglecting herself or anything I promise the only one who might be doing that sometimes is me.
I suppose that can be the case sometimes but usually when I rush things I just end up causing more trouble... or saying something stupid... again. Ah... I remember those days... I look on Arty's face when he noticed changes was priceless. I'm sure if you could hear some of it for yourself you would understand why I don't really want to pick it up... I'm not sure I can explain why I like it so much... It's a nice change, something different, a different way of life and it's... freeing... in a way I guess. You should try it someday. I'm trying to remember really I am, but when I'm sick to my stomach I don't see the point of wasting food that's just going to come back up anyway. I'll be having a guest soon 'though so I suppose I should make more of an effort...
I'm not sure that I'm managing to get him to listen at all. He seems to be twisting things every which way to see only the negative aspects. If it weren't for other responsibilities I think I'd be taking Air Force 1 and heading out that way to shake him and see if perhaps hearing the words in person would make a change from paper. Perhaps writing isn't conveying the proper tone... I'm doing my best but he is seriously determined to see the worst and he's not really listening at all. But don't worry! I'm not giving up! I'm sure I'll think of something! But you keep thinking too because you see him a lot. There must be something!
I'm sure it will help! It has to or I swear to god I'll- You're welcome little-dude.
Alfred
P.S. - Excellent! And don't worry I think just talking and making me have to remember that there's something I'm supposed to be remembering is helping... I think. There is something you could do. I've asked Sepp to be one of my groomsmen as well. We're going to have to get together and make sure we've got your sizes and that the tuxes look good on you both at some point.
P.P.S. - I'm trying I really am trying to take care of myself. I think I've been a little better lately. I understand.
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Post by Ryan Paterson Jones on Jun 24, 2012 9:25:34 GMT -5
Dad, Hey! What's up? How have you been? Right now, I'm down the shore and just got back from the broadwalk. - Ryan PS. Sparky says hi. Ryan! It's great to hear from you buddy it's been a while. Ah... well... I've just been working on preparations for the wedding and playing video games... not too much else up. I've been doing ok. How have you been buddy? Love, Dad P.S. Hey sparky! Hope you haven't been spooking too many people, just enough to keep them hooked! Dad- Oh cool! As for me, Sparky and I are at Elena's house to visit her. And I'm fine just really hot... There has been a major heat wave for a while now. -Ryan PS. Don't worry... Sparky's not going to scare people this time, Dad!
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jun 25, 2012 20:33:58 GMT -5
Sepp,
I apologize for taking so long to get back to you man, but I just couldn't seem to figure out what to say and I... well I'm trying not to foul anything up and find the right words.
I doubt you have been wrong about as much as you think and I think you need to trust yourself to know those things I guess. It doesn't have to be true, anyone can lie even about hurtful things. And you really don't seem to understand at all how to interpret that. "Nice" is not "Fuck off". That is not what I meant. I meant that there is nothing wrong with you that you need to change aside from the fact that you're letting these things get you down and not seeming to think... I thought that was my job? I'm supposed to not think and everyone else is supposed to put me in my place right? Kidding kidding!
Just because someone has a reason to be an ass doesn't mean that they are not being an ass. I highly doubt you made a mistake or if there was a mistake it was probably on both of your parts.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. People care about you even if I can't head over there maybe I should get on the f-ing phone and just call because then you could hear me and maybe you would believe me. I will apologize if I damn well feel like it because if I feel I was in the wrong well I was probably at least marginally in the wrong. That isn't what I meant at all. Just because your problems are different doesn't make them any less bad and Ham-man might not be dying, but he's still trying to leave you and that can hurt just as much in its own way. Perhaps even worse because it's a choice and not involuntary. You have no idea Sepp my man. I've put my foot in it so badly with so many people I'm surprised I can even talk around my shit covered sneaker. I've failed in things as well. Although I still don't think you're as bad a failure as you want to make out right now. Just because at the moment all you can see is the clouds doesn't mean that you won't find the silver lining eventually. Things can only get better! Dude everyone's weak like that sometimes. Me, you, your brothers, everyone.
I highly doubt that just because he's with G-man that Fel's gonna go and forget you. You don't forget all your friends for the one your f-ing unless you're really a shitty friend... or your in a really shitty relationship with a control freak. kay dude.
Okay.... I seriously don't know what to tell you Seppy. I would try but I'm not exactly known for good advice that's for wise people. Unfortunately I have proven time and again that wisdom is not a skill I put enough points into somewhere along the way and I'm still trying to catch up.
DO NOT APOLOGIZE FOR MY STUPIDITY! Dude I WANTED to write you a letter I just kept misplacing my note to do so! Because I am a retard in Texas.
I'd feel better if I knew you were feeling better honestly, but I don't want you to lie to me. I want you to feel better and to get better. I'm worried about you Seppkick. I don't know what to tell you. You aren't allowed to disappear into a monastery because we want you around. You're allowed to bother me. Hell call at one AM if you want and ask me if my refrigerator's running... it should at least be worth a laugh. You're allowed to be angry, you're allowed to be made at me for being a sucky friend, yell at me scream at me if I deserve it I'll take it. You are allowed to be sad, but you are not allowed to let it control your life to the point where you no longer seem to live it. You aren't allowed to call yourself a burden or a failure to me because in no way have you been one in my eyes and so you are not one. You should eat and sleep because it's good for you (as I've been getting lectured on as well actually...) and if you want to skip work for a day skip work for a day. Screw the suits they can deal with it. You can make decisions... It's just that the people who CARE about you are worried about you making decisions that will make you sick or som'thin'. ... but it would be funny...
Sincerely, Alfred.
P.S. ..... You aren't the only one who's barely hearing a peep from her... I'm a little worried to be honest... okay. .... Well... I think I went to one once... when I was a kid... and it was dull!
P.P.S. No need to apologize. How could you have known about how f-ed up my family life is outside my states?
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jun 25, 2012 20:44:03 GMT -5
Dad- Oh cool! As for me, Sparky and I are at Elena's house to visit her. And I'm fine just really hot... There has been a major heat wave for a while now. -Ryan PS. Don't worry... Sparky's not going to scare people this time, Dad! Ryan, Sounds like a good time. I hope you have a good visit. I'm glad you're doing well... yeah it's really hot all over this year... Love, Dad P.S. Well it's okay if he scares them a little, just not too much. Where would be the draw if he didn't scare them at all!
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Post by josephseidl on Jun 29, 2012 16:28:32 GMT -5
Servus Alfred,
it’s okay. I’ve been quite out of sorts lately… and I wasn’t myself. I want to… you know… for worrying you and the inconvenience… I’m… uhm… sorry. A-and thank you… for caring about me and… that you didn’t give me up.
First I want you to know that I’m not in a monastery and that I’m well. O-okay… I’m doing okay, but I have the help the idiotic Preiss imposed on me against my will and I’m getting better. My brothers and Feliciano are having an eye on me, make sure that I eat and sleep, get my work done and exercise and so. My health is making progress and I’m beginning not to be that pessimistic anymore. I’m okay.
Feliciano also arranged a reunion with Hamish and, well,... w-we got to talk some things out. You were right, we… desperately needed to talk. And we’ve made up, thank God. I-I need him. There are still quite a few things t-that we have to solve, but for now we’re g-good.
Again, thank you for everything, Alfred. I-I’m sorry that it took so long until the Preiss smacked me on the head really hard… figuratively and literally until I finally got what you and Feliciano have been telling me all along. I know now that I’m not alone and that I have some friends who care about me and want me around. A-and that I can be more than just a friend too. And not a failure. … Unfortunately I can’t deny that I did get myself sick, but I’m doing better again now. Not funny at all. You have no idea what the Preissn slave-driver put me through lately.
Pfiadi, Joseph
P.S.: I’m worried too. Did you hear anything from Alexis in the meantime…?
P.P.S.: As your friend I should have known. Is there something else that bothers you or that I could help you with? Ach ja, concerning that groomsman thing… w-well, if you still want me, I’d feel honored.
-- How short the letter is all of a sudden when all the drama is gone… ^^;
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Post by Joseph L Jones on Jul 14, 2012 3:27:28 GMT -5
((So many long letters @___@))
Hola,
America, como esta'? 'ave you been ok recently? What has been goin' on senor? I hope ya've been doing muy bien.
-Alejandra
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jul 18, 2012 8:18:56 GMT -5
Sepp,
Yeah I think I noticed that. I'm glad that you seem to be realizing it yourself. It's alright Sepp, that's what good friends do for each other. I'll always be around as best as I can even when you drive me up a wall with depressed nonsense. I'm stubborn and I'll outlast any spell like that, you don't really need to apologize... but well... I guess I accept your apology if you feel that it is necessary.
I'm glad you aren't in a monastery. I'm still not sure I believe you about it not being boring you know, but I'm sure if you had to you would find a way to prove me wrong wouldn't you? I'm really glad you're getting better even if it means accepting help from Gilby which I'm sure must be terrible for you you poor thing. That's good, I hope you aren't too bogged down with work 'though 'cause that would suck. Make sure you remember the glass is always half full and not half empty!
Thank heavens! I know you need him it was easy to tell Sepp, you wouldn't have been falling apart if you didn't need him so much. That you have been able to talk most of it out is wonderful, I may not be the biggest fan of Ham-man, but he's your friend and so I'm really happy you've been able to get past this. I wish you the best of luck with sorting things out and I hope that this doesn't happen again.
Hey like I said I did it because I'm your friend and the Hero!, no thanks are necessary. I'm not sure how many different ways I could have tried to tell you so I'm glad that apparently he scrambled your brains with a whack just enough to rearrange things to the right order. You're a great friend, Sepp. You tolerate me and I've heard from someone that that's enough to drive a saint to sin so that speaks excellently for your character. Hey we all make a bit of a mistake sometimes, and it's... easier than we'd like to head down that sort of road, but as long as you can manage to turn it around and work to get better that's what's really important. I'll have to take your word on that. I hope it's not been too terrible, if it gets too awful just let me know and Hero Alfred will send you a care package of anything you need to get back at him if you can't get it yourself without him knowing...
Sincerely, Alfred
P.S. No... Not a word since the last letter I received from you... I've been trying to call and I haven't managed to catch her on the phone either.
P.P.S. I don't know that there's much bothering me you could help me with. Mostly it's just the usual trying to keep the kids under control and trying to have a civil conversation by post with Arthur. I worry about the weather and all too, it's been pretty bad lately, but there's not much to be done about that either. Of course I still want you to be a groomsman Sepp. You're one of my best friends and I'd hope you know that.
Still a lot longer than some. Sorry this took so long. I managed to get some letters done at one point, but not all and other things kept comign up.
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Post by Alfred F. Jones on Jul 18, 2012 8:26:34 GMT -5
((So many long letters @___@)) Hola, America, como esta'? 'ave you been ok recently? What has been goin' on senor? I hope ya've been doing muy bien. -Alejandra Yo Jandra, Eh, I've been doing alright I guess. Weather sucks ass and I've got more drought than I'd like, things are gonna be tough... Beyond that 'bout the usual Politicians talking shit about other politician's 'cause elections are coming up and kids being kids. I swear Rina's trying to drive me insane. She's just recovered mostly from the worst wildfire burns and she's out climbing up cliffs to visit eagles in their caves. Celsi's threatening to turn her siblings into toads, Little Man is being well... Tex, Alexis has been out of touch and I'm not the only one she's worrying - has she talked to you lately? - and Ryan... Ryan's been behaving really well actually... it's nice even if it's a bit surprising. What about you Jandra? - Alfred ((*laughs* I like long letters))
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Post by Ryan Paterson Jones on Jul 21, 2012 11:13:40 GMT -5
Dad- Oh cool! As for me, Sparky and I are at Elena's house to visit her. And I'm fine just really hot... There has been a major heat wave for a while now. -Ryan PS. Don't worry... Sparky's not going to scare people this time, Dad! Ryan, Sounds like a good time. I hope you have a good visit. I'm glad you're doing well... yeah it's really hot all over this year... Love, Dad P.S. Well it's okay if he scares them a little, just not too much. Where would be the draw if he didn't scare them at all! Dad- Thanks Dad... And we will have a good time. -Ryan PS: Alright then. I'll tell him.
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Post by Joseph L Jones on Jul 21, 2012 23:44:37 GMT -5
Hola Al,
Oh so the man of privilege is havin' problems with drought and politicians and weather? It must be hard. Your kids are all very cute.
Ayah kids these days seem to care about fun or others more than they care of themselves. Remind her she needs to make sure she's well enough before she can do things like that eh? Celsi? Why is Elena trying to do that? Hm... Alej? I was takin' care of her across the border here but then she up and left and I aint seen her since. Bien~
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